Summary: Alice & Bella fall in love, and try to be together, at all costs.
Feedback: A Poet Of Dawn
I had no idea what was going on. It felt like my world was crashing down by some unforeseen force, that wanted me to be miserable. I could guess why though. I felt I deserved the punishment I was about to be handed. And yet at the same time I felt I didn't deserve this at all. Doesn't every single thing - human or not- deserve to be happy here, deserve to lead some kind of life they want. But its hard when you know your hurting the ones you love. But I decided that in order to be happy I needed to pursue it. I needed to take it by the hand and run away, where no one would fine us. Be together forever, leave the sadness behind. But so much easier said than done in my case.
“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you! Happy birthday, dear Bella, happy birthday to you!”
The song ended and I blew out the two candles that were lit in a huge cake, Esme had gotten for me. It was my birthday. But not a birthday you count as human, it was my second birthday as a vampire. I didn't want to do anything, after all this could get tire some after a decade or so. I didn't plan on doing this for eternity. But I knew Esme nor Alice couldn't resist it. They loved special occasions, like this, and because I loved these two eternal creatures, I as well learned to love these occasions.
It was actually fun. Even though we would not eat the cake, there was still Jake & Seth to feed. I looked around satisfied to what I saw. A family – my family – gathered around. Rose & Emmet were across from me, on the other side of the table. Next to Emmet was Carlisle, holding hands with his beloved Esme. Jake was next to Rosalie, with Nessie by his side. Although she was two, she had the body of a 6 year old. She was growing so fast, it was hard to keep track of it. But all my worries & fears had disappeared when we discovered she will never die, like the rest of us.
It was Nahule who revealed this information to us, on that day we had all thought the end was near.. It was he who saved us. We remained very close to him, we visited him every now & again, in South America, as he did with us. He & Nessie loved to be around each other. Though Jacob was never too far away from her.
Alice was to my left, with Jasper close to her side. & Edward was to my right, with Seth over his shoulder.
He smiled “Did you make a wish Bella?”
“I'll never tell” I smiled back
Edward had his arm around my waist, & he squeezed it, while handing me the knife to cut the cake. All I had to do was split it in half, for Jacob & Seth. Nessie could eat food too, but she didn't like most of it. It was strange to have a 2 year old not have a sweet tooth for sugar. She only had a sweet tooth with blood.
“Happy birthday Momma” Nessie yelled as she swiftly came over to me. Though her speed was not as fast as the rest of us, what with her being half human, she was still graceful in the moves she made. I always say she got that from Edward.
I bent down & threw my arms out, so she would give me a hug, she was not as strong as us either.
“Thank you sweetheart” I replied while burring my head in her thick hair.
Jacob was there then, behind her, never too far away. “Happy birthday Bells” he said while I rose from Nessie's hug, than punched me in the arm. I smiled widely at this. I was happy to have him in my life. Though I did love him, he had a new love. One that would not be at all as hard to bear as the one we had. I was happy that he was happy. He got a happy ending that everyone deserves.
“Thanks Jake.” I punched him back.
“Ow” he complained
“Oh please” I said rolling my eyes. I was 2 years old now, my new born strength had left me about a year ago. I was sad to have it leave. All that power, it was sometimes fun. Emmett & I would have weekly arm wrestling matches, just to see if my strength was declining, over time it did. But for the first year, it was hilarious to see Emmett lose over & over again. But he got his victory when he defeated me for the first time. Though it still bothers him when I bring it up. We all bother him about it.
“Well dig in guys” Edward said to Jacob & Seth.
“Don't need to tell us twice” Seth answered as he garbed his half of the enormous vanilla cake. They ate so much. But it was good to keep up the charade of buying food for the house.
Charlie wasn't here. He didn't need to be here for this birthday. I was going to have another little one with him, Edward, Nessie, & Jake, in a few days. On the day I was born as a human. I did this only for him. I loved Charlie, therefore I did anything that could extend our memory's together. It saddened me to know that I was going to out live my father. So any extra time I could have with him, I was going to take it.
“Bella?” A voice called. The second I heard it, I knew at once who it was. If my heart were still beating, I was sure it would have stopped.
“Bella could you come in here for a moment?” The voice called again. I walked away from everyone and dashed up the stairs, went to the door, and entered the room I knew she would be in.
I walked in the beautiful bedroom, and closed the door behind me. I smiled as I walked over to the extremely large closet.
“Yeah, Alice?” But she wasn't there. It was empty. I looked around once more, then sniffed. Her sent was fresh, which means she was still here. I smiled hearing a growl from behind me. But I didn't turn around fast enough. I was pinned to the ground. I giggled as I turned to see her smile just as wide as I felt mine.
“Gotcha” She breathed, just low enough for me to hear. She leaned in to whisper in my ear, her breath tickling. “You look irresistibly beautiful tonight, I just had to sneak you away.”
I ran my hands up the side of her body, her lips began to kiss my neck. My hands where in her hair, I moved them to her cheeks, holding her face as our lips connected. It was electricity. I couldn't let her go. I pulled her tighter to me body. I moaned a tiny moan, and the kiss became harder, as if she couldn't let me go either. But all to soon we parted. She was still on top of me, I looked into her forever eyes.
“This is getting harder & harder, trying to keep control in front of them. Epically Jasper, & Edward.” She sighed
“Well I could shield you.”
“No, Edward would know somethings up, don't worry I'll somehow manage. But if you continue to wear these outfits I don't think I will be able to.” She growled. I looked down to examine myself. I had on a very nicely fitted, light blue dress. It complemented me in all the right places.
“You got me this outfit, remember?”
“I do, but I didn't realize how hard it would be to see you in it, when I can't touch you in the ways I would like to.”
“Well than stop shopping for me.”
“Oh nice try, not going to happen”
“Damn, well hey its the thought that counts” I giggled. I pulled her face down, to once more have our lips meet. This time it was slower, & softer.
I sighed once more when we had to part again.
“I got you something, for your birthday.” Her eyes lite up. That was the second thing Alice loved to do, give gifts. But I groaned. That was something I didn't like to get, because the things I would get, it sometimes made me feel as though I don't deserve them.
“Oh Bella, don't be that way. And yes I should have, for crying out loud, its your birthday. You can have a present, and your going to have this one from me, whether you want it or not.”
I didn't complain then, a present from Alice was one I couldn't turn away. Not as I could with everyone else. She knew me so well, therefor she would know what I would absolutely love.
She got up, in a graceful movement that halted me for a moment. Then I got up quickly. Knowing we had to be quick. We didn't need someone to come upstairs, looking for the two of us.
She disappeared around one corner of her enormous closet. I stood there for about a half a second, until she returned. She had a long, dark red container in her hand. She put it out for me to take.
I opened it slowly. And gasped as I saw the beautiful heart shaped diamond necklace that was enclosed within. It was absolutely exquisite. I smiled, then I garbed her by the collar of her buttoned up shirt, pulled her in and kissed her. It was not as soft as our last one, but not as rough as the one before that. It was different. She was amazing, and I showed it. Her hands moved into my hair, moving them everywhere. I pulled away, just as sad as all the other times we have had to pull away. But still happy because of what I was holding.
Her eyes were still closed, our lips were still touching just enough to make me quiver.
“So I take it you like it?” she whispered
“Could you guess?” I said with a coy smile.
“I'm glad you like it”
“I don't just like it Alice. I absolutely adore it.” I said looking back at the fabulous necklace in the box.
“Well good, because it was hard to pick it out. May I put it on you?”
“Of course.” I answered, I wouldn't want anyone but her to put it on me.
She took a step closer to me, puled the necklace out of the red velvet box and went around to my back. I pulled my hair away, feeling it go around my neck, and felt it fall to place as she clasped the locks.
I put my free hand on the diamond. I was already facing her wall length mirror.
“It looks beautiful on you Bella, I'm releaved you love it. There was another one that I was thinking of getting instead of this one, but you look absolutely fabulous in the one I chose.” She said into my ear. I felt her arms wrap around my waist.
I closed my eyes. Her lips were on the back of my neck. It felt amazing. I sighed and leaned back, closer into her. I moved my head to my right. I opened my eyes to see her looking into them. She leaned in to kiss me. We heard someone coming up the stairs.
We pulled away quickly. Though how I wish I could have stayed there in her perfect arms.
I put my hand on her cheek, caressing it. And quickly gave her a soft kiss. We walked out of her closet, to see Edward standing in the doorway. He was smiling. He would not have been able to see us from here, we were to deep in the closet. I walked over to him with a forced smile.
“Thats very pretty.” he said, looking at my necklace.
“Isn't it? Alice got it for me.” I looked over at her . Her face was just as composed as mine, a smile in place. But as I looked into her eyes, I saw the pain that I felt. We both yearned to be closer than we were at this moment.
“Well everyone else would like you to open your gifts.”
“Alright” I sighed. He put his arm around my waist as we headed out of the bed room & downstairs.
They were all waiting, every one of them had some sort of different wrapped shaped gift in there hands.
The first was Nessie. She got a very lovely picture of the two of us, & framed it, in a just as beautiful frame. Esme and Carlisle gave me their gift, it was a book. Something small, I liked gifts that were small. It was a book called The Secret. It looked interesting & I was now eager for some free time to sit down and read it.
Rose & Emmett had gotten me a laptop. It was very nice and small. They said it was wireless, though I hardly went on the computer, I now wanted to explore the Internet, considering I didn't have such a slow dial up anymore. Seth gave me 2 movies, vampire movies. One was called Underworld, the other was the sequel to it. I smiled. I never watched movies, not even human. But now it would be funny to see how mortals portrayed us. Jake was last, - Edward told me before that he was going to give me my present at home - he handed me a wrapped box and when I ripped off the wrapping paper, I didn't know what it was. It was for a car. He laughed seeing my confusion. So did Rose and Edward, the mechanics of the family.
“It's new headers for your Ferrari.” Jacob explained.
“It makes the car faster” Edward explained some more.
“Yes because my car needs to go any faster.”
Everyone laughed. Nessie gave a loud yawn. She was tired. So I scooped her up in my arms and began to rock her to sleep. Edward packed everything up. We said goodnight to everyone. Jacob & Seth were walking out with us. I turned to see one last pair of eyes quickly. Alice looked just as she had in the bedroom. The forced smile, but the pain behind them was impossible for me to not see. I gave a small smile and turned to leave.
Jake & Seth said their goodbyes to us, and began to walk in the other direction of us. Edward and I picked up our speed, I wanted to get Nessie to her bed. She was so exhausted. Like she was every night. Her and Jake always had a fun day together.
We reached the little cottage, Edward opened the door as I walked directly to her room, and placed her in her bed. I kissed her forehead and walked out closing the door.
I walked down the hall & into the bedroom, over to the window and peered outside, into the night. I felt Edward's arms go around my waist from behind.
“Did you have a good birthday?” he murmured into my ear.
“Yes, it was great.”
“Would you like your gift now?” he asked.
He pulled one arm away and went into his pocket. Than I he held up a small box, the kind that held rings. I sighed, he always got me something big.
I reached out for it, and opened the tiny box. It was very beautiful. A ring with my birthstone in it, Sapphire.
Edward took it out of the box, and slid it onto my middle finger, of my right hand. It fit perfectly. As I suspected it would. He never made mistakes with jewelery.
“It looks amazing on you.”
“Yes it does. Thank you.”
I put the empty box on the table closest to me, and went back to the position I originally was in.
“Happy birthday” he breathed into my ear, and wrapped his arms around me once again. I stared up at the moon, and closed my eyes, wanting another voice to be breathing those words into my ear, & another pair of arms around me.
I was in Nessie's room, watching her sleep
Thank you everyone for your reviews, I'm glad you guys liked it. I'm working on the next few chapters, don't worry this is no where near over.
I was in Nessie's room, watching her sleep. The sun was rising, and I knew she would soon begin to awaken. Her breath was slow & even. I couldn't imagine never knowing this beautiful child. It was hard to see how she was my daughter. Anyone in public, who saw us, thought she was my younger sister. It was a story we all went along with. But in the family, she was indeed mine.
I couldn't believe how my life turned out. How I got to this point. Five years ago, I saw my life in a completely different direction. Finishing out my days in Forks High School, going to some college, and growing up to have the husband, house, and family.
I did finish out my days of high school in Forks, but that’s where it all ends, and becomes the life I have now. I didn't go to college - though I suspect one day I will, I have eternity for it after all – and I did get the husband, house and child. But the fact that we were all creatures of the night – as humans called us – was something I didn't imagine. Ever.
I did love this life, the one I never dreamed of. I did have an amazing husband, an amazing family, and a beautiful daughter; I never thought I could have.
But there was something missing from all of this. Something I so desperately wanted. Needed. I felt sick to my stomach, thinking the life I was given, is just not good enough. I was given everything I could have asked for.
And yet, I was ready to trade it all in, just for the one thing I knew I could never have. But isn't that the typical thing, desiring the one thing we know we cannot have.
In all honesty, I didn't think this applied to me. Because I've already had her. Maybe not the way I have Edward. No it was so much more different. The intense love I felt for Alice it was not mistakable. It was there. Burning. Like wildfire in a dry forest.
I wanted to be with her. Be near her, all the time. To hold her and not be worried of how quickly our time would end. It pained me, just as much as I had seen last night, it pained her.
The image of her face flooded my memory. To any of the others she looked fine, content. But to me, she was sad. A sharp pain ripped through my torso, and I fought back the need to breath, knowing it would only cause sobbing.
I was the cause of her pain. The cause for that look in her eyes. It was like a knife plunging into my heart, knowing this.
I wanted to make her pain stop, as well as my own. But how? How could I do that? I couldn't. Not without hurting everyone else.
But how is that fair? Wasn't I too allowed to be happy, even if it wasn't with someone I wasn't supposed to be with?
But by whose terms was I not supposed to be with her. If we loved one another, doesn't that count as something? And I did love her, deeply. It was not infatuation or lust. It was love. I felt this in the core of my bones. The very center of my silent heart. I was in love with Alice. I would give my life for her. Do anything she asked of me. Even if that meant give her up. If it meant for her to be happy. I would be happy, as long as she was happy.
I didn't know if she felt the same way. We've never discussed that. It just sort of happened. But for as long as I've known her, I've felt it build to this point. I liked to think she did. That she would do the same things I would do for her. Maybe she would. And maybe she did indeed love me with the same passion that I loved her. But I didn't want to build such hope. Hope was as deadly was poison. Too much of it and it could destroy you.
I was pulled out of my thoughts as Nessie turned, awakening I suspected. I stayed still for a few moments. Just to see if she would fall back to sleep, but knew she would not. She never moved in her sleep. She was always so still. There have been many nights where I have retreated into her room, to watch her sleep, trying to escape from my plaguing thoughts.
Her eyes fluttered open, locking onto me. Many mornings she has woken up to find me here. She was not surprised in the least.
“Morning momma.” She said quietly.
“Good morning baby”
She stretched quickly, than pulled the covers off and came over to my waiting arms. I was sitting in the rocking chair we had gotten her for her first birthday.
She climbed onto me. Fitting so perfectly into my body.
We stayed there for a long moment, as I rocked her.
“Hey momma?” she asked after a while.
“Can I ask you a question?”
“Of course honey, what is it?”
“Well... I was noticing that Aunt Alice has been looking sad lately. Not like her usual self. Is she okay?”
I was careful not to do anything that would give me away. She was just like her father, in every way. So observant.
“I don't know. I'm sure she is fine. If you want I'll talk to her, see if she is okay. How does that sound?” I tried to play it off, though not sure if I was very successful. Her mentioning Alice threw me off, more than I would have guessed.
“Okay. But don't tell her I said anything. Promise?” She looked up at me then, her eyes big and brown. Grateful that my eyes were not among the others to be lost to my immortal body, they were in my beautiful girl.
“Promise.” I reassured her, and she put her head back to where it was.
“Good morning” Edwards’s voice filled the room. We both looked up at him, smiling.
“Morning daddy” Nessie chimed, jumping out of my arms to run into his.
“Good morning Edward.” I said as she did this.
Nessie was in his arms already, hugging him. He smiled over to me, than looked down at her.
“Did you sleep well?”
“Yes I did, I had the most exciting dream.”
“Would you like to tell me on the way to grandma's and grandpas?” He said while putting her down and taking her hand in his.
They began to walk out of the room, Nessie already telling her dream. I was not too far behind.
When we reached the house, everyone was there. Rose and Emmett on the couch watching T.V. While Esme was in the kitchen, preparing Nessie's breakfast, no doubt. Carlisle was most likely at the hospital. I didn't see Alice or Jasper.
Nessie went into the kitchen, hungry. I heard her exclaim excitement when she saw Esme. How she loved Esme.
I walked into the living room and sat at the nearest chair. Not paying any attention at all to what Emmett or Rose were watching.
“So Edward, we going hunting today? Jasper has been dying to go.” Emmett asked as Edward walked out of the kitchen and coming into the living room.
“Just as planned. Where is Jasper?” Edward asked.
My attention caught, knowing where Jasper was would easily tell me where Alice was.
“He's getting ready upstairs. Alice is there with him.” Emmett answered.
Just then Jasper came down the stairs, Alice at his side. She looked happy. Not the same sad look she had last night. It was different. Hopeful. She must have seen something happening today, something she liked.
“Ready?” Emmett asked Jasper.
“Indeed.” He said, looking over at Edward.
Edward walked over and kissed my forehead. As Jasper did the same with Alice. Emmett on the other hand was very much different. We all looked away at his and Rose's goodbye.
Then the 3 of them were gone.
Alice sat on the couch, looking the same way. Rose wasn't paying very much attention, so I looked over catching Alice's intense stare. I could do nothing but stare back.
Than all too quickly pulled away, at the sound of Nessie's excitement when Jacob walked through the door. Seth was surprisingly not with him today.
“Hey Nessie!” Jacob yelled the same excitement in his voice.
She jumped into his arms, laughing as he ticked her.
“Hey guys” He yelled over to us, of course he didn't need to yell, we could all hear perfectly fine, even if he whispered.
“Hey Jake” Both Alice & I said at the same time, than we looked at each other, the same intense stare happening. But again looked away.
Jacob was walking into the the room at this point. Nessie climbing all over him. He was so big, he was like a tree. I smiled at this.
“Hey Bells, can I spend the day with Nessie?” Jacob asked a huge grin in place.
“Sure.” I answered, they hadn't had a day to themselves in a while, and I thought I might let them have it. Plus Jake would tire her out early.
“Bye momma” Nessie said, a smile just as big as his.
“See ya later Sweetheart.”
They bounded out the door together, laughing. As they're voices faded, I heard Nessie telling her dream to him. I was going to have to ask her later what it was about. I wasn't quite paying much attention to her telling Edward, and for this I felt bad.
Rose got up then, and walked out to the garage. I heard her BMW start and drive away. She was probably going shopping or something to pass the day without Emmett.
I no longer heard Esme in the kitchen. She was not in her office. She had a project she was working on most likely and stepped out to work on it.
Which left me and Alice sitting here. I looked over at her. That smile was back. And I knew now why she was so happy before. As I suspected she saw all of this happening. Though maybe not Jacob, because she couldn't see when he was in the picture, but we all knew he would ask to have Nessie for the day.
I felt a smile spread across my face as well. We had an entire day to ourselves. A very rare occasion. And we didn't waste time.
We both got up swiftly and went out to her yellow Porsche. I got in the passenger side, while she got in the drivers.
Together zooming off out of the long driveway that separated us from the road, to begin a day, we both knew would be forever in our memories.
“Well, I suppose you saw all of this happening, didn't you?” I asked Alice as we drove to Seattle.
She laughed beautifully.
“And if I said yes?”
“If you said yes, I would be upset that I was not in on this plan of yours.”
“Oh it was hardly a plan. It just happened.”
“I'm sure it did.” I replied coyly.
“Though I did take it within my hands to tell Jasper that we would be shopping all day, I'm sure he passed on that message.” She said as she looked over at me smiling mischievously.
I laughed. I knew she was too cute sometimes; it was hard to contain my happiness in moment. I felt like I was going to burst with the bliss that filled me inside.
“Well now we have all this time ahead of us, what do you see happening for the rest of the day?”
She looked over at me, as if I needed to tell her.
“I don't know yet.” She admitted looking back out the windshield. It was sunny as we began to inch closer and closer to Seattle. Luckily for us, Alice had a special tint done to her car, just like on Carlisle's Mercedes. It looked like dusk in here.
“You don't know? That's a first.”
“Bella, I don't know yet, because we haven't decided what we wanted to do.”
“Oh.” I said stupidly. It was obvious. We had to make a decision on what it was we were going to do. A day we had to ourselves.
So I began to think. My mind drifted in and out of plans, knowing that everyone I liked she saw; therefore she could say which plan she liked the most. It didn't matter really; to me what we did would be great, because I was going to be with her every second of it.
My mind kept drifting back to one specific thing that I did want. But I continued to dismiss the idea quickly enough so that Alice could not see where my mind was. This time though, I thought about it a bit too long, and I knew she saw exactly what I was thinking because she broke into laughter.
I looked over at her knowing if I could still blush I would have. Very badly. So I just looked down and quietly laughed to pull off my embarrassment.
“Bella.” The angel next to me softly said, and I felt her hand under my chin to lift my head and face her.
“You don't have to be embarrassed, it’s me.”
“I know, I just...” I trailed off looking away again, her hand dropped and she looked ahead again.
“You just, what?” She asked after a moment of silence.
“I don't know. I didn't think that’s what you wanted, so I kept pushing the idea out. I didn't mean for you to see it. I'm sorry.”
The yellow Porsche began to drift to the side of the road, out of traffic's way. She pulled over, turned off the car, and then turned to me in her seat. I felt her glare on me, waiting for me to turn myself in her direction. So I did, slowly. Afraid of what she was going to say. Maybe she didn't like what I thought, or maybe she did. But there I was again, hoping.
“Bella please look at me.” Alice finally said.
I looked up at her, into her beautifully golden eyes.
“What’s wrong?” She asked.
“Nothing.” I simply said, but my voice cracked. I looked down again.
“Please.” she said so low that I wasn't sure she said it at all, I looked up again.
“Please, talk to me”
I couldn't deny her request. I couldn't deny her a single thing in this world, or any other.
“I don't want you to think wrongly of me. With what I thought, what you saw.” I confessed.
“Why would I think wrongly of you?” her question sounded sincere.
“I don't know...”
She put her hand on my cheek, her thumb caressing me. Then she smiled and leaned closer to me, her lips were so close to my own, that it became hard to think of anything else but her amazing sent.
She sighed which made her breath engulf my senses. I closed my eyes, taking as much of her in, as I could.
I couldn't handle the restraint any longer. I slid my hand behind her neck and pulled her that extra inch. Our lips met and it was just what we both needed. When she kissed me, I felt no doubt there. In these moments of connection, I knew exactly how she felt about me. So why did I doubt her feelings for me any other time? It was foolish. I loved her, deeply. And I wanted to know if my feelings were indeed returned.
She pulled away slowly, our lips still touching. Our breath a little staggered. I opened my eyes to see hers still closed and I put free hand on the side of her left cheek. My other hand still behind her neck, while her hands were buried in my hair. She sighed, opening her eyes to look into mine. It appeared to me that she was looking for something within them, not sure what, but after a moment she seemed to have found it.
She took her hands out of my hair, putting one, on my hand that rested on her cheek. With the other hand she pulled mine from her neck. Now taking both into her lap, looking down at them, as she seemed to be deciding something.
Looking up at me, she smiled, and it looked like she decided. I was nervous because of this. I didn't know what she was doing. I was becoming very anxious. But when I looked into her eyes, I calmed. The gorgeous smile that took up half of her face was in her eyes as well. And because of this, I seemed to ease quickly. It was like she was my personal Jasper. Able to change my moods without me being able to put up any kind of fight.
“I’m in love you.” She whispered.
My head began to swirl as I tried to comprehend what she had just said. Did she really say she loved me? Did I hear her right? Or was it my imagination? She could have said something else, something my mind didn't want to hear and pretended she said what I've longed for her to say.
But if she truly did say what I think she said, than she has just confessed her love for me, and all of my fears of how she felt about me dissolved into hope for the future. In that instance it built a solid mountain of hope. Something I've avoided all this time was now as big as the Earth. Those words showed me that this might be possible. To be with her. Because now she felt the same way, and now it meant we could have a future.
“Say something.” She asked anxiously, and I realized I didn't speak for a long time. She looked just as scared as I was a few moments ago.
“I'm sorry.” I said bursting into laughter “I'm just so... so... relieved!” I finally spit out.
“Relieved?” She questioned. And it looked like it was my sanity she questioned.
“Yes.” I finally choked out, but soon realized this was a serious conversation that I needed to be serious for. So I took one deep breath that was not needed and relaxed.
But I didn't speak, because to show her how I felt, all I did was lean in closer and put my icy lips onto hers. It was quick. And when I pulled away, I rested my head against hers and breathed “I love you.”
She leaned away quickly, to look at me from further away I suspected.
“I do.” I explained “I have for a very long time now. And you cannot imagine the fear that has been building inside of me, not knowing your feelings. But now...” I continued, taking one hand out of her hands, putting it to her cheek, “... now, I know. And now you know. I'm in love with you Alice.”
She laughed now too, and I guessed it was the same reason that I had laughed before. Relief.
“So” I began, “What do we do now?”
She stopped laughing then, her eyes unfocused. She was having a vision. It was quick, and when it was over she focused on my again, and smiled.
Alice leaned away from me and settled back into her seat, started the car and zoomed back into traffic.
I didn't know what she saw; she kept quiet about her vision. But if she wanted me to know, she would have told me. But her smile was still there as she drove to the unknown destination.
I looked out the window trying to make sense of where we were going. Alice got off the next exit, and we came to a red light.
“Mind telling me where we're heading?” I finally asked.
“You already know.” She smiled as I saw her look at me from the corner of her eyes.
The light turned green and she made a right hand turn. I was only a little confused. If she said I knew, well then I knew. But how did I know? Was it what I thought earlier? I got a chill of excitement not knowing what she had planned.
I felt the car slow, and Alice turned into a big parking lot, of a big building. She went into the parking garage and parked. We both got out at the same time. Together we walked into the entrance, and I quickly saw exactly where we were. I chuckled when we walked through the big lobby of the Marriott hotel, and up to the front desk.
The older man behind it was looking down typing on a computer.
“Welcome to the Marriott, how can I help...” He trailed off, as his eyes met our beautiful faces, and then went wide. I always found it amusing to be the one to throw people off, and not be the one who was thrown off by such beautiful creatures.
The man, whose name was John according to the pin on his shirt, looked in his late twenty's, he had long hair that was combed back in a neat style. Composing himself quickly, and Clearing his throat, he straitened up. The natural male instincts to try and impress when females they were greatly attracted to, came along.
“How can I help you ladies?” He finally asked.
“We would like a room please.” Alice smiled brightly at him. Working her charm.
“Sure, how long will you be staying?”
“Oh, just the day.”
He looked at us curiously, then went back to his typing.
“We've just taken a 5 hour flight from New York, and our next flight as been delayed. We'd like to rest a little before we need to take another 10 hour flight.” Alice's acting was fun to watch.
“Ah, well I'm sorry to hear that” and he sounded sincere about it. “Would you like joining rooms?”
“Yes, please” I replied, and we heard his heart pick up speed. I smiled. He looked down trying to conceal his attraction for me.
I felt Alice stiffen at my side, and I curiously looked over at her wondering why. Her eyes were narrowed on John, and hostility rolled off her in waves. I didn’t know why she was doing this, and it made me nervous. I’d never seen Alice acting this way.
“You’ll just need to pay and then you can be on your way.” He said directly to me, smiling a bit more then necessary.
Alice handed him her credit card without moments pause, and he reluctantly looked away from my face to Alice’s. The moment he did, it looked like he’d seen a ghost. He turned pale in a matter of seconds and his heart went into frenzy. This caused me alarm as I looked over at Alice. She looked terrifying. Well to a human anyway, to a human she looked like a vampire. To me, or any other vampire, they would see this as a look of murderous glares. The kind we would give to our enemies, and from the center of her body I heard a growl build. Though it was too weak for the mortal to hear, I on the other hand heard it very clearly.
His human instincts told him to work very quickly, to let us go. And he did. But Alice didn’t seem to relax. So I put my hand in the center of her back, trying to sooth her. It worked. Her tensed shoulders dropped immediately, her growl dissipated instantly, and she looked over at me, giving an apologetic smile.
“Here you go” his voice cracked as he handed Alice back the card, and he made no eye contact with Alice nor I.
“And here is your room keys, the twelfth floor, room 509 and 510.”
“Thank you.” I said, while Alice was already walking towards the elevator. He never looked up. His subconscious told him not to, and it was good he didn’t. But I did feel bad, I had no idea what caused Alice to do such a thing.
She was already at the elevator door, with the button pushed, when I reached her.
There was a couple to our right going up as well. The husband couldn’t get his eyes off of us. I was so use to the stares by now. It never got old, it made me feel good. So I just smiled when I caught him looking once more. His wife didn’t like his looking very much.
The light above the elevator lit, and then dinged. A second later the doors opened. Empty.
Alice & I walked in first, moving to the back, while the couple were in front. They pushed five, while twelve was already lit. Alice must have pushed it without having me notice.
We rode in silence. The couple was talking quietly, and got off at their floor having a little argument.
“What the hell was that?” I asked her the second the doors closed, taking us up to our floor.
“What the hell was what?” She was playing it off like nothing.
“Why did you get to angry at that guy?”
“It was nothing; I just got a little ahead of myself is all.”
“I’ve never seen you do that Alice.”
“Well there’s a first time for everything right.”
The elevator slowed down, reaching our floor, then opened.
We stepped out; Alice led the way, making a left. She must have seen the room already.
It wasn’t a long walk; she reached one of the rooms, put the key in, and walked inside without pause. I walked in, not too far behind her.
The room was nice. It was big as well. It had its own deck, a small kitchen, and a decent sized living room. There was another door past the living room, where I suspected the bedroom was.
I walked over to the door and opened it. Just as I thought, here it was. And huge. Practically the size of the other room, and in the center was a king sized bed. There was another door to the left, probably the bathroom, I assumed. With the size of this hotel room, the bathroom would be just as large, no doubt.
I heard a low growl from behind me, and I smiled turning around. But no one was there. I smiled wider, knowing this was our little game.
So with my heightened senses, I smelled the air. She was in the room yes, but where? I thought.
I heard another growl from behind me once more, and with my speed turned around, but she was once again gone.
“Come out, come out, where ever you are” I teased.
Then from behind me, arms wrap around my waist.
“Gotcha again.” Alice whispered into my ear “Your awfully bad at catching me” then began to nibble on my ear lobe.
I leaned into her sighing with contentment. This is where I wanted to be. For the rest of my eternal life, I wanted to be in these arms.
“So do you plan on telling me what is was that made you so upset?” I asked bringing up the intended dropped question.
“It was nothing, just that wretched man behind the counter, he iterated me. That’s all.”
“How did he do that? What did he do?”
“The way he looked at you, it just… got to me.” She sighed “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have acted like that. Forgive me?”
“Always” and I leaned back, resting against her cement body.
We stayed like that for a while. We knew we only had so much time to us, but this felt right. It felt as though we could end our moment together right now and it wouldn’t be so hard, because at least we got to have this moment.
I finally turned around to face my lover. Like so many other times her beauty struck me, like a thunderbolt. But it felt good.
I took my hand and put it to her cheek, like so many times today, and gently leaned in. I didn’t want to move fast at all today, it would only remind me of our limited time. And that caused pain.
When our lips met, it was different from all the other kisses we’ve shared. Now that our love was declared, there was no fear in this kiss, no hesitation. Just passion and love.
We were in the center of the large bedroom, my back to the door, hers to the bed. The hand that was on her cheek now moved, along with my other hand, into her hair. Her hands were in my hair.
Without breaking the kiss, I began to move us towards the bed. We weren’t that far from it, so the back of Alice’s legs soon hit the frame.
She broke the kiss then. Her face was just inches from mine, but she began to move further back, I realized that she was setting herself on the king sized bed. She looked so small in it, I had to smile.
When she made herself comfortable, she reached out her hand, for me to take. Slowly I got onto the oversized furniture, and made my way to her side.
As we lay there, we looked into each others eyes. And I found exactly what I was looking for. A fire of hope. The same hope, I, as well felt. A hope that one day, we can forever be together.
She began to caress my face, so I closed my eyes, taking in every sensation her touch made. Forcing it into my memory, so when she was away from me, I could unlock it and feel safe.
With my eyes still closed I pulled her closer, breathing her in. She found my lips this time. I moved my hand down her waist, past her hip, and to her behind her knee. With one quick movement, she was on top of me, the kiss never broken. Alice moaned into my mouth, it made me want her so much more. The lust I had built up inside of me was intensified.
I parted my lips, slipping my tongue into her mouth, I could taste the venom. My hands began to explore her body, we’ve never been able to have this kind of moment alone. I was all but too eager to discover this beauty above me.
These moments were why I believed we existed. Moments are all we have with each other. You could take them for granted like most of the world does, or you can take advantage of them, like I was.
I was in this moment, the best I ever have had, human and vampire. I was with my soul mate. This beautiful creature beneath me was why I lived right now. Because of her, I was having this experience, one I knew I would never forget.
Even if I lived to see cars in the air and the world a different place, a different time, I would still never forget this, because I could never forget her. Whether together or apart, she would always be the cause of the clutter of my brain and the miss beating of my heart.
I would never want anyone else for eternity the way I wanted Alice right now. How the lust I had for her was building and the love was growing.
We kissed feverishly, never breathing, my hands roaming her stone body, just as hers did with mine. When I pulled back, I looked into her eyes, I saw passion. The same passion I was feeling inside the core of my dead body.
I took one of my hands from her thigh and began to travel up her shirt, smiling as I did this, and then bent down to continue the wild kissing. My tongue slipped into her mouth, tasting her, becoming more and more aroused. The wetness between my legs only intensified.
My cold hands traced her stomach; it was like I couldn’t keep my hands off her, as if I would die if I didn’t continue to touch her.
I moved upward and when I reached her bra I could feel the hardness of her erect nipple. I began to trace it and I felt her quiver, then groan. Her back arching, pushing my hand more into her firm breast.
Her hands were everywhere on my body, mostly tracing my back, which sent me crazed to have her. She couldn’t keep them still, though I didn’t mind.
I could feel them lowering until they reached my ass and in a move that sent chills down my spine, squeezed and pulled me further into her, our hips grinding together.
I had never had these kind of thrills before with anyone. It was electrifying.
We were still kissing, our tongues moving together; I pulled my hand out from her shirt and gripped the bottom, pulling it upwards to take it off her. Just before breaking from the kiss, I sucked on her bottom lip, she moaned once more. Then in a quick fluid motion, her shirt was off and on the floor. I saw her bra was pink lace. So like my Alice.
It felt good to say that, my Alice. I wanted to say it all the time. At random moments, just simply say my Alice. I wanted her to be mine, and no one else’s. I wanted her forever, I wanted to be hers and she mine. But something told me that it wasn’t going to be so easy to simply have her. But whatever it took, I would make it happen. She was my everything now, and I couldn’t turn back.
“What are you thinking?” Alice asked, breaking the long and busy silence. I looked into her never aging eyes and I longed to look into them for eternity.
“I was thinking how much I love you.” I quietly said. Though it wasn’t the pure truth, it still was as true as the sky being blue or the oxygen in the air.
She smiled and began to stroke my face, I closed my eyes and took her sent in.
“I was just thinking the same thing,” she breathed.
I opened my eyes and her beauty stuck me, like a lighting bolt hitting directly into my heart, but it was not pain that I felt of this, no, it was much more pleasant. It was incredible.
And that was all the words that needed to be spoken.
My hands went around to her back and undid her bra. When I unclipped it and pulled it off, the wetness between my legs was a flood.
I crashed my lips to hers that instant, but didn’t stay there long. I began to travel downward, kissing her jaw line, sucking on her neck, kissing her collar bone.
My hands were busy as well, one was rubbing through her jeans, in-between her legs, while the other caressed her breast. My mouth soon found one and I took her nipple into it. Licking all around, while sucking at the same time. Alice groaned loudly and I could feel the wetness through her jeans.
Before I realized it my shirt was off and she was making quick work of my bra. Once that was off, she made no hesitation, she took both of my breasts into her hands and while caressing one she began to suck on the other. I threw my head back, moaning.
She broke away from me and her hand once again grabbed my ass, lifted me in the air without a single pause, and through my on to the bed, so now she was on top.
She began to kiss me; it was so intense and wild. We couldn’t get enough of each other. I wanted her so badly. I needed her so badly.
Her lips began to move down my torso, and when she reached the button of my faded blue jeans, she undid the button with her teeth. In no time they were pulled off. I could not contain myself, I sat up grabbed the back of her head and pulled her into me, forcefully. Our lips crashed together like a Tsunami hitting a shore. I couldn’t control the urge to just keep touching her.
This is what I’ve longed for since the very ordinary night that turned out to be one I will never forget. I remember it as if it happened only minutes ago, so fresh in my mind. The way our bodies brushed against each other, like any other time. But this time it was so much more different. It was electricity pulsing through me the second our skin connected. And I looked up at her, I saw it in her eyes, she felt it too. No one was around though, thank God for that, we both knew that If both Edward and Jasper were there, we would have been caught. My only thoughts were of Alice and how her touch sent chills though my already ice cold skin, or how when our fingers found each other involuntarily my emotions were of lust and passion, something that would have never gotten by Jasper. And when our lips met… when our lips met, it was something that I had no control over. My body gravitated towards her, as if we were attracting magnets. And from that night, only months ago, was were this love affair had begun. And I would not wish for it any other way.
Now we were both fully naked, and I felt more comfortable with her then anyone I've ever been naked in front of. And I could feel that she felt the same way. Our kiss broke and we were both breathing hard, taking in the unnecessary air, it was more of the excitement that was driving us insane.
Alice began to travel downward kissing every inch she passed, her hand was playing clit, and it was driving me wild. Then with two fingers she entered me, my back arched and I began to moan loudly. They soon formed into her beautiful name. It wasn't very long until the intense pleasure reached its peak. It was by far the best orgasm I had ever had. And I was happy that it happened with Alice.
The great thing about being a vampire; we never got tired. I quickly took Alice by the hips and planted her on her back while I did the work. She bit her bottom lip as I began to once again suck on her nipple, while my hand went lower, once I reached nether regions, I played around with her, I wanted her to become as wild as she had made me. But I figured since she had more practice with sex and was very much open to it, she would be harder to make fold her cards. But after I entered her, it seemed like she wasn't winning the battle. She was moaning much louder then I was, which turned me on even more, and she was moving with my thrusts. My other hand was playing with her breasts, which might have been sending her more over the edge. It didn't take long and I knew when she came because she began to quiver and screamed out my name. As I watched the pleasure rip through her, I got pleasure out of it, and I loved it.
We had gone several more rounds, causing each other amazing orgasms one right after the other. And finally after the fourth one for both of us, we collapsed onto the bed together. Not that we were tired, since it wasn't possible for us to be tired, but more of a little break. I knew it wouldn't be long till I needed to make love to her again. And as I began to think about this so far amazing afternoon, how would I survive not being able to touch in when the family was around. When we weren't alone, to keep my emotions at bay in front of Jasper. But at least I only had my emotions to control. Alice had both her thoughts and feelings. I didn't want to dwell on it anymore, and I quickly remembered that I was indeed here, in my lovers arms, happy as I've ever been, and purely at peace with everything.
“What are you thinking now?” Alice asked looking into my eyes. Our arms were wrapped around one another, and our faces were barley apart. Our breathing was slow and in rhythm with each other.
I smiled at her, “I was thinking about how beautiful you are.”
She laughed her little Alice laugh, “Merci mademoiselle”
“That was French right?” In love stories, I always found it beautiful when one knew a language and began to speak to the other in it.
“Yes it was, I know a lot of languages, I'm sure you'll learn too, after all you have eternity”
“Yes I do” I laughed, “So what do you know?”
“I know French, Italian, German, Russian, Spanish, Portuguese... oh the list goes on” and she winked at me. I began to caress her face, she closed her eyes and kissed my palm.
“Will you speak to me in a language?” I asked brushing my lips to hers, then ever so softly kissed her.
Her eyes were still closed when she began to speak. “Lei è la mia felicità, se il mio cuore potrebbe battere, batterebbe per lei solo, il mio amore”
“Sounds like Italian?” I smiled.
“Indeed it was.” She breathed as she opened her eyes, to look into mine. “would you like to know what I just said?”
“Only if it is something good.” I teased.
“Always,” she said now taking my hand that was on her cheek and kissing my palm once more, before putting her palm on my cheek, her thumb caressing my face.
“Alright then tell me.”
She smiled “I said, 'You are my happiness, if my heart could beat, it would beat for you only, my love”
And with that, I could say no more to her but “I love you” and I truly and deeply meant it.
“I love you,” and this time brought her lips to mine. We shared a deep, and passionate kiss, a loving kiss. One that I wanted to do forever with her.
Alice and I were still in bed, we had stayed in all day. Not needed anything but each other. We had made love several more times, and they were blissful pleasures. Now we just layed together in each others arms, perfectly happy. We talked about everything and nothing. There was never the need to sleep so just talked and stared into each others eyes.
“Do you miss being a human?” Alice asked after breaking a long silence.
“Not so much anymore. See if I was human I couldn't do this...” I put my lips to hers and playfully bit her.
“No you couldn't have,” she laughed. Then she wrapped her arms around my naked waist and pulled me closer into her. Then she lowered her head and began to kiss up and down my neck.
“But I do miss somethings...” I breathed out, becoming aroused once again.
“Like what?” her breath was tickling me.
“Hmmm, like food. I do miss the taste of food.” I confessed. I never spoke about this with Edward, and he never asked. I felt that if I told him the little things I missed being mortal, he would feel guilty about taking my life, no matter how much of a near death experience I was in.
“I wish I could know the different kinds of foods. I wish I could remember more.” She was now eye level with me.
“I do too, but your not missing anything, todays food is nothing but calories”
She giggled at that “Well you managed to stay perfectly fit”
“I didn't think so then, but I do now.” I smiled. We shared another soft kiss.
“What time is it?” I asked. Alice looked past me to the nightstand were I guessed the clock was. I wasn't paying much attention to it when we first came in.
“Its almost 6pm”
And thats when the dread hit. This perfect moment, was quickly leaving me, and in its place it was putting sadness. I couldn't leave her, not yet. I needed more time. I just needed more time. Alice saw the panic in my eyes, but she didn't return it the same way. Instead I saw something else, something mischievous. She had something planned.
“What are you up to Alice?” I sternly looked at her.
She smiled and started to get up. And I began to panic more, I grabbed onto her arm, and when she looked back at me somehow I felt okay, I felt that whatever she was going to do, it would be okay.
Alice got up and seeing her stand in the little rays of sun that entered the room and hit her naked skin, making it look like diamonds were under the surface, left me aw struck and horny. She looked at the floor quickly and in a fluid motion that would leave a human breathless, walked, or rather danced to her jeans, picked them up and got her cell phone out of her front pocket.
She oped it and dialed a number. In no time the other end was picked up and with my vampire hearing i heard Carlisle's voice on the other end.
“Hi Carlisle” she voice sang.
“What can I do for you?”
“Well the boys are gone for the weekend and well Bella & I wanted to do the same, so we'll be shopping pretty much, so if they ask let them know where we are.” Even to other vampires, Alice was brilliant at lying. But I was pretty sure that some of it wasn't a lie. She was probably going to force to to shop somewhat, since we did need to come back with clothes. Alice always had to come back with clothes.
“No problem. I'll let them know.”
“Thank you!” and with that she hung up the phone, turned to me and smiled. I smiled back.
“Well not we have days to us, what shall we do?” I asked coyly.
She cocked her head to the side and I saw her eyes come unfocused then focused again. She saw what I was about to do, and she just smiled bigger at me.
I sat up, reached my arm out and grabbed her hand, pulling her towards me and the bed. I pulled her face to mine and began to kiss her, calmly at first, then it turned into a fever. The worry I was feeling minutes ago was now being washed away by her kiss.
We made quick and intense love, this time was almost as great as the first. Although I doubt anything would be as great as the first. When we once again layed in the bed, side by side, we talked about a lot. Mostly about me being human, and what I liked about it, and what I didn't like.
“So what do you want to do tonight?” She asked.
“Hmm well I would like to do a few things” I breathed, my fingers were grazing her stomach.
“Bella, as much as I would love to spend eternity in this bed, giving you pleasure, we do need to do something tonight... I saw in the lobby there is a ball happening.”
“A ball? Like what they had back in the day”
She giggled “They still have them, and they're having one tonight. Would you like to accompany me?”
I rested my head on her stomach and felt her stroking the stop of my head. “Is that old English saying for being your date?”
She laughed “I would suppose it does, is that a yes?”
“Aren't those fancy”
“I guess it would depend on who you ask, but yes I would say they are formal”
“So we're supposed to show up in jeans & t-shirts?” I giggled.
And here it was... shopping. I groaned.
“Oh come on Bella, please?”
I lifted my head and looked at her, her eyes were pleading, and I knew I couldn't deny her anything. Not even my own heart.
“Might as well get it over with.” I sighed. But I was hopeful. Maybe this would be somewhat fun. I had never even imagined going to a formal ball before, and I couldn't imagine anyone better to have on my arm.
“Oh Bella you have to try this one on!" Alice's excited voice said.
"Alice..." I began to pout.
"Oh come on Bella, this will be the last one, I promise..."
"Thats what you said about the last 7!" I flung my hands up in the air, aggravated.
"But those were all so pretty and you know it, its not my fault you didn't like any of them, even though they all looked stunning on that gorgeous body of yours that you keep hidden."
"Well... well... oh fine give me that."
"Thank you!" She exclaimed and clapped her hands together, I just stuck my tongue at her, I had no good comeback and she knew it.
We'd been shopping for about and hour and a half before Alice found her dress. When she came out of the fitting room, in a long black gown that was open in the back and a fitting V shape neck line, it made her look beautiful in all the right places. It took everything I had to not rip it off her right then and there. And one point I actually thought about it, as she was changing out she yelled "Bella!" in a very disapproving way, I knew she saw what I was thinking and I just smiled when she came out and winked.
I would have never or have never been like this with anyone. The way I am with Alice is a totally different me. She has apart of me that I never intended to give away, but the second our lips touched on that very regular day, and I knew I was madly in love with her, I changed. When I'm with Alice, its like this other side of me, that I really never allowed anyone else to see, comes out. She became my existence that day, and it hasn't or never will change.
I was only in the dressing room for less then a minute, I was just getting the dress on when Alice was suddenly right there in the room with me. Her eyes looked like they were mad with hunger.
"Alice, whats wrong?" I immediately put my hands on both sides of her face. But she didn't say anything, her eyes just scanned my body, the dress was fully on, I just needed to zipper the side, I was about to when Alice appeared.
She didn't say anything, she just looked quickly at me, locking her hand in the back of my head and with such force pulled me into her. Her lips crashed with mine and my questions where gone, yes I was wondering why she was acting like this, but at the same time didn't really care. What felt like an eternity, she finally pulled away, her eyes still hungry.
"What the hell was that?" I finally asked
"I'm sorry, but this dress, on you, is making me extremely horny."
I was a little bit shocked and turned on at the same time by her explanation.
"But I didn't even come out yet and you were here."
"I saw it on you dummy, and the second I did, I needed to touch you." Her hands were traveling up and down on my arms.
I turned around to see myself in the mirror, it was red, blood red. It wasn't as long as Alice's, it stopped at my knee's... maybe a little bit higher up, the neck line was pretty low, which I didn't notice till just now but I didn't mind, and it was tied around my neck leaving my upper back exposed, similar to Alice's, but instead hers went all the way to her lower back.
To my surprise, I actually liked this dress, and Alice made it known how much she liked it because her hands were still roaming my body. But we both knew that we couldn't lose our control in a public place, and exotic as it sounded, we still had to put into factor the humans near by.
"So is it safe to say we've found both dresses and need to get back to our room?" I asked becoming more and more aroused as her lips found my neck.
"Mmmm but I want you right now" I heard a low growl begin to build.
"Alice, you know how much I would love it, but not here. Its too dangerous."
"I know, I know" She sighed and took a step back, with the cutest little pout.
She left the room and within 30 seconds I had the dress off and my clothes back on, ready to leave. We got our things together and headed to the cash register, and quickly made our exit. The shopping center was right across from our hotel and it was dark out, so in no time we were in the lobby.
"I just thought of something" I said looking over at Alice.
"We only payed for the room for just today, and since we're staying the weekend..."
"Yeah, I've already thought of that, but I want you to do it since I don't know if I can' handle being human, or trying at least, around that fellow." she said nodding her head in the man behind the front desk's direction.
"Alright, I'll be right back" I said without a moments pause. I headed over to the front desk, and when John saw me coming his face lit up instantly, but his eyes quickly looked past me, and I would guess right to Alice.
"Hi, I'm back" I said smiling.
"I can see that" he said smiling back bigger. "What can I help you with this time?"
"Well, turns out we'll be staying a few extra days, until Monday morning probably, so we'll need to pay for that."
"Thats no problem, I'll just make sure to bill it up to your room."
"Oh okay, that was easy." I said laughing a bit. "Thank you"
As I turned to walk away, he began "So the woman your with..." but trailed off, I think it was because he thought better of it, but I was curious to know what he wanted to ask.
"Never mind, its non of my business" he looked down.
"I don't mind"
When he looked up, he smiled lightly, "well she gave me a really dirty look this morning and I just wanted to know if I did something wrong."
I felt bad about what had happened and quickly went to apologize for Alice. "I'm sorry about that, she just was having a bad morning and didn't mean to take anything out on you, she truly felt bad about it"
"Oh, well thats alright."
"I'll be sure to tell her you forgive her"
"Okay" and his smile went bigger. I once again went to turn away when he started another question.
"Well actually I wanted to ask, but this morning didn't get a chance, with your friend and all, but would you like to get a drink with me later on tonight?" his heart I could hear, began to pick up speed, and he began to sweat.
"That really is sweet of you, and I'm flattered by your invitation, but I'm married." I said politely
"Oh, I didn't see a ring" and after he said that, I looked down, I remembered I had taken it off when we got into the room.
"Its upstairs" I quickly retorted.
"I'm sorry" it looked like he was embarrassed.
"Thats okay" I answered smiling.
Just then, I heard a low growl come from across the room, I knew instantly it was Alice, but before I had time to leave she was right there next to me, hardly anyone was in the lobby, but she still knew better then that.
She once again looked like she had earlier today, I now understood why she acted in such a way, she saw what he was about to ask, and she got jealous. I smiled instantly at this, but it quickly faded. I needed to get Alice out of here, and upstairs.
"Bella, we need to get ready for the ball." Alice said through her teeth.
"Oh right, well it was nice speaking with you John." I turned to walk away, I grabbed Alice's hand pulling her along.
"You too" he whispered, but I think he didn't plan for it to be so low, he looked terrified. I felt bad.
Once in the elevator, I dropped her hand and crossed my arms. She didn't speak for the elevator ride, nor did I. Once we got into the room and she closed the door and spoke up.
"I'm terribly sorry Bella, truly I am."
I just continued to walk into the bedroom to get my dress. We only had an hour to get ready, but it plenty of time for vampires.
"Please Bella, don't be mad at me, I'm sorry." She pleaded coming over to me and warping her arms around my waist from behind.
"I understood why you would be jealous, I probably would be too, but he was a simple mortal man, he held no interest of mine."
"I know, he just got under my skin. I just wish I could have made it known that you were mine." she sighed into my hair.
I turned around to face her, she had never said anything to that effect before and I wasn't sure if I heard her right.
"I'm yours?" I asked questioningly
She smiled and put her left hand to my cheek. "And I am yours. Forever"
I leaned into her and kissed her deeply and softly. My hand gripped the bottom of her t-shirt and I pulled it off, she on the other hand
wasted no time, she ripped my shirt right off me.
"Don't worry, I got you a new one" She breathed as her lips formed to mine once again.
I picked her up with my in-human strength and quickly reached the bed. I laid her on her back, and began to work at her jeans.
Those were off instantly. I simply did my own jeans this time, Now we were down to our underwear and that was very quickly off of Alice once I saw her perfect body laying there, begging to be touched.
My finger tips began to playfully glide along her stomach, and where my fingers touched my mouth soon followed. I kissed, sucked and nibbled on her skin, then I began to travel up, my right hand had found her breast and quickly after my mouth found it. My tongue was going around in circles, then I began to suck on her nipple. I heard her moan.
She wrapped her legs around mine and flipped me over, so now she was on top. She kissed slowly on my neck, she raised her head and whispered, "I want you so badly." Her breath was tickling my ear.
I grabbed a fist full of her hair and lifted her so I could look into her eyes, then I began to kiss her, feverishly.
Her hands began to travel downward as we kissed, and when her fingers entered me, I moaned into her mouth.
She moved in and out slowly but soon picked up speed, my body began to move with her.
Her lips began to move down my body and her mouth found my breast, It wasn't very long till my body erupted in an orgasm, I began to quiver.
When my back collapsed back into the bed, I found myself breathing hard, not because I needed the oxygen, but because I was taking in her beautiful sent. She rested her head on my stomach as if she was just as satisfied as I was.
"We're going to be late." She breathed into my skin.
"I don't want to move."
She raised her head to look at me, and her eyes were so irresistible
"Okay, okay." I said getting up so unwillingly, she giggled.
I tilted me head down towards her "Just wait till we get back, its your turn" I breathed, then kissed her softly.
We got dressed quickly, with only ten minutes to spare. Alice was doing her makeup when I entered the bathroom, I came up from behind her and kissed the back of her neck, then traveled down to her back. She shivered.
"Would you like to put makeup on Bella?" She asked.
"Not really, but do I have a choice in it?" I laughed.
"You know me too well." she giggled.
"I hope so," I said seriously. And it began to make me think, yes I knew Alice very well, I knew her like I knew myself. But the little things that couples know about each other, I didn't. Such as favorite movies, or songs, favorite colors and books. I wanted to know all of this, I wanted to know so much more then I already knew.
"I can tell you all of that stuff later" She answered to my not yet asked questions. "We're going to be late"
She quickly put eyeliner and mascara on me, I didn't understand why vampires even needed makeup. We were already breathtakingly beautiful, what did it matter if we had it on, but whatever pleased my Alice, would please me.
She gave me a quick kiss in the elevator as we headed downstairs to the huge ball room they had. We walked past the front desk and I smiled at John while passing. When we went in, I was surprised by how many people were here already, most were older couples. But some where people who looked like they could be in there twenty's. Everyone was in nice dresses and suits. I didn't feel over or under dressed, which I was happy about.
We found an empty table for two and sat down. Light background music was playing, it was older music, the kind of music grandparents knew, and most likely Alice. I looked over at her and smiled, her eyes were lite with excitement. I didn't know if she'd ever been to one of these, probably, but it was nice that she was already likening it.
Some people were dancing slowly to what was playing, while others ordered they're meals. There were waiters and waitresses walking around with glasses and bottles of shampain. When one came over to us asking if we wanted some, he was awe struck when we looked up at him. He didn't speak for a moment, while his jaw hung open. It reminded me of the first time I was the Cullen's. I simply smiled at him and Alice simply put her hand up and said "No thank you". When he walked away, another girl came over, I guessed she was our waitress, her reaction was the same.
"Can I get you girls anything?" She said staggered.
"No thank you," Alice replied and shot her one of those beautiful dazzling smiles vampires have.
"Alright, well let me know if you need anything" and with that she walked away, stumbling.
"This is beautiful" Alice cooed.
"It is" I agreed looking at her stunning face and body. I already knew it was going to be hard to control myself tonight, well that was until we get upstairs. I quickly ran through the things I was going to do, I saw Alice's eyes unfocused then focus again, she looked over to me, smiled and winked, I guessed she saw what I was planning and didn't mind. I smiled a bit wider back at her.
The evening was perfect, we talked for sometime, and a few times got up to dance. A few songs I knew, but most I didn't. Many people noticed us, Alice was very much use to it, but I still hadn't gotten over the ogling we always get.
It was a live bad, but not the kind I was use to, with guitars and drums, instead there were trumpets and saxophones, flutes and violins. And an older man who sang most of the older songs.
When the night was ending, most people had already left, only the older couples stayed, dancing to the music they had grown up with.
When the final song began to play, Alice got excited "Oh Bella, we have to dance to this." She didn't give me time to object, though I probably wouldn't have. We made our way to the floor as the beginning of the song played. It was a slow song, and she didn't hesitate at all to pull me close into her. The older couples didn't really notice us as most of the younger couples had, they simply stared into each others eyes while they danced, I always admired the couples that lasted forty or fifty years and still loved one another as if it was they day they met.
When the man began to sing the words to the song, I instantly knew it, it was Frank Sinatra's The Way You Look Tonight. My mother liked some of his songs and this was her favorites, she use to play it around the house all the time, singing it to me when I was younger.
The music flowed as we twirled together in its beat, "Someday, when I'm awfully low, when the world is cold, I will feel a glow thinking of you, and the way you look tonight." I liked the words and it was pretty weird that this was the last song, I thought this was exactly how I felt towards Alice as the words continued. At one point she lifted her head from my shoulder and our eyes locked. I saw her begin to mouth the words as it neared to its ending. "Lovely, don't you ever change, keep that breathless charm, won't you please arrange it, cause I love you, just the way you look tonight, mhhm mhhm, just the way you look tonight." As it ended she ever so softly leaned in and gave me a kiss.
It was almost 12:30am when the crowd parted to their separate rooms. Alice and I were in a crowded elevator on our way up to our room. But by our floor we were the last ones on. As she opened the door, I looked over at the beautiful vampire and smiled, she looked over to me after walking into the room and saw the smile that was in place and asked "What makes you so happy?" I walked over to her, wrapped my arms around her waist and our foreheads touched, our lips barley apart and whispered "You."
She closed the distance between are lips, and kissed me passionately and lovingly. We made love for the rest of the night, several times, and as the sun rose, we laid together side by side talking endlessly. I had remembered that I never asked her all the things I wanted to ask her while we were getting ready for the ball.
"Do you ever watch movies?" I asked her as I played with her short hair.
"Hmm sometimes, though I haven't been keeping up with the latest craze." She smiled. Her eyes were closed, and was on her back while I was propped up on my left side looking at her.
"Well the movies you have seen, what do you like?"
"I don't know, they're are so many to choose from."
"What is your favorite era?"
"You mean in movies, or just in general?"
"We'll stick to movies for now." I smiled. She opened her eyes and turned to her right to look at me.
"Well, I hated the 80's movies, all around it was the same damn thing, teenage movies, and high school. The 90's were bearable, more so then the 80's, and the 70's and 60's were pretty much just stoner's making films... not the best combination sometimes." she laughed. "I always did like Titanic."
"My eyes were practically out of their sockets, "Titanic?! why?" I asked baffled.
She smiled and turned her head back closing her eyes once more, "The love story was unoriginal, but the history behind the magnificent ship is epic. Maybe about ten minutes of that movie is real, and thats when it sank." she laughed. "I have a few old acquaintances who were on that ship, took them two weeks till they reached shore, had to feed on sharks and fish." she grimaced.
"Wow, thats amazing." But I remembered something about her past that didn't fit "But wait didn't it sink in the early 1900's?"
"I thought you woke up to this life a little bit later then that?"
"I did" She laughed and looked over at me as if I was missing something I shouldn't be. "I met them after I was changed of course, they told me the story then."
"Okay, but you still haven't answered my question" I moved from twirling with her hair, to caressing her forearm.
"I'm sorry, Hmm well I did always enjoy the movie Stowaway. It was made in the 30's or 40's, I can't remember, but I do know it was of Shirley Temples time. She is in it."
"I've never heard of it, I would like to see it with you one day."
She opened her eyes and turned to me "That would be nice."
"How about favorite music, downstairs you got very excited for Frank Sinatra." I said, remembering her jump up to the final song.
"Yes, I've always loved him, I saw in play once, it was extraordinary." She sighed as I saw her eyes unfocus, recalling a distant memory.
"What is your favorite song by him?" I asked, thinking maybe I knew it. My mother liked him, but not enough to listen to all of him, only the most famous.
She thought for a moment then looked up at me and said "Fly Me To The Moon"
I thought for a moment, but couldn't remember the song ever playing in the house I grew up in.
"I don't know that one, will you sing it to me" I asked "please."
"Only for you." She answered after a moment. Then she closed her eyes and began "Fly me to the moon, let me play among the stars, let me see what spring on Jupiter and Mars. In others words, hold my hand, in other words baby kiss me." I leaned down and softly put my lips to hers, when I raised my head for her to continue, there was a smile in place. "Fill my heart with song and let me sing forever more, you are long for, all I worship and adore, in other words, please be true, in other words, I love you." Her voice rang like beautiful bells on a Sunday morning. It made me melt hearing it flow to the words of such meaningful lyrics. "Fill my heart with song, let me sing forever more. You are all I long for, all I worship and adore. In other words, please be true, in other words... in other words... I love... you."
Her eyes opened when I knew it was over and she looked up, I didn't know the kind of face I had on, but inside I felt bliss. I loved how she sang that song to me, and it meant so much.
"Bella?" She said after a moment. I looked down to see her face worried, thinking something was wrong with me, when in turn there was just not a single moment of any other emotion besides happiness, and it felt right that Alice was next to me as it happened and the very reason for it.
"It was beautiful Alice" I breathed, and I leaned down to kiss her again.
I laid my body down and curled up next to hers. She wrapped her arms around me as I did with her, and there we laid, I closed my eye as she hummed me the song over and over, and I knew, there was no where else on the planet I needed to be, then right here in these arms... Happy.
|< Précédent||Suivant >|