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JJ was ready to call Emily and tell her that she couldn't do this, not because she didn't want to go. Not because she didn't mean what she had said earlier either but simply for the fact that non of her clothes seemed to be good enough to go on a date with Emily Prentiss. She felt like a young lovesick teenager and once again she realized how much differently this already was then the early stages of her relationship with Will. She really was in love with Emily.
"Garcia! Help me dammit! My bedroom is a disaster area. I have never been this nervous before going on a date before. Never." JJ replied, the phone cradled between her shoulder and ear while her hands frantically searched through the pile of clothes on her bed, and the little bit that remained in her closet.
"Stop! Jayje stop! You're driving yourself insane, and me to booth." Garcia was the voice of reason which actually halted JJ's motions. "What are you doing? There is no reason to freak out like this. It's Emily were talking about, you've been on countless dates with her."
The blond straightened and took the phone back in her hand, the fingers of her other hand absentmindedly threading through her hair. "DATES! No, we have never been on a date, we went on countless girls nights out to the movies or bar hopping. As friends, not as lovers or at least people who are trying to figure out if they can manage to build a future together. There was NO pressure. This is a date! A real date, romance, kissing … " JJ sighed willing the headache which was quickly approaching away. She knew that it was a combination of sleep deprivation and stress which was causing it; "Now the pressure is way up there." She waved with her hand in the air as if she wanted to physically show how high the pressure was, a gesture which of course was something which Garcia couldn't see.
"Jayje, give it up already." Garcia interrupted her friend. "Get your black slacks, the high heeled boots with the metal along the heel. You know which ones I mean?"
"Yes, the shoes which were way to expensive but I just had to have?" JJ replied with a chuckle.
"Yes those and the top you bought last time we were on a shopping spree, with the glittery embroidery on it. Now young lady put me on speaker phone and get dressed, so that we can chat some more. You got about thirty minutes before Emily picks you up right?"
JJ checked her watched and almost freaked out again when she noticed that she actually had less then thirty minutes left. "Yes, more or less..." She replied softly while she placed the phone on her bed side table. Knowing Emily she would be punctual, she always was it was probably a trait which had been drilled into her at a very young age by her Ambassador mother.
She dug through the pile of clothes again retrieving the said slacks and top and started to undress before she redressed again in the suggested clothes. "Okay, I got the clothes you suggested." The mirror on her closet door showed that Garcia was right, the clothes fitted for a date without being to overdressed. They were perfect.
"You make it sound like something horrible." Garcia chuckled.
"I know, but it's not. Just the nerves talking, I swear it's perfect." JJ grabbed the phone of the nightstand and stepped into the bath room. She started applying her make up while she listened to Garcia.
"Gumdrop, approach this date as 'girl-nights-out' with the exception of the enlightening presence of yours truly of course. Just go on the date like you usually would, have fun and see were it leads. Don't force anything, and maybe something happens maybe not. But whatever you do, don't force anything!" Garcia was happy for her friends, finally her two best friends were following the path they were supposed to walk. She had feared that both of the women had lost their chances when Emily's comment practically send JJ into Will's arms.
And then Will had dropped the bombshell on the team by announcing JJ's pregnancy to them. Emily had congratulated them but Garcia had seen the pain in her eyes. Garcia had known or at least suspected that the brunette was interested in JJ and women in general. "Jayje, I'm sure that Emily is just as nervous as you are right now and I am sure that compartmentalizing won't help her this time."
JJ smiled, she loved Garcia the woman always knew how to cheer her up. She was glad that she called, she was actually feeling calmer; "Okay, that might be true," she admitted; "Pen, what would I do without you?"
"Be miserable, a nervous wreck who was probably still secretly longing for a certain brunette while being with Will, pretending to love him..." Garcia summed up with a chuckle.
"Okay, okay. You can stop now I get your point." JJ chuckled; "I would be screwed without you."
"Nah Sugar, I think I leave that to Emily." The blond Tech laughed out loud; "I take this as my point to say 'Garcia out'. Have fun!" Garcia disconnected the call before JJ could reply, the media liaison raised her brow and looked at her phone while shaking her head in disbelieve. Only Garcia would make a comment like that. She was glad that she was on the phone with Garcia and therefor the other blond hadn't been able to see how red her cheeks turned at the mention of 'screwing' and 'Emily' in one sentence. The blond tried to shake the images appearing in her minds eye and continued to get ready for her date.
JJ made sure thats she was downstairs by the time Emily was going to arrive. The talk with Garcia had made sure that she was back with her two feet on the ground and it had calmed her down considerably. At the very least she was no longer wrenching her hands or biting her lip.
She stood in front of the window which looked out over the patch of grass and the white picket fence in front of her house. Ironically that was the kind of an vision little Jennifer Jareau always had of the house she would call home when she grew up. A home needed a garden, not that she ever really got the time to spend planting flowers but it still felt homey. The way a family home was supposed to feel. With the job she had she needed a house which represented all that is good in the world, and for her the patch of green in front of her house and the secluded garden in the back gave her that. She had sought a long time to find the house but she had known that it would be a house where she would feel relaxed, which gave her a place to recharge the depleted batteries after a hard case. And now the house also provided a place where Henry could grow up and play in the garden.
JJ smiled thinking about that, a thought which automatically brought her back to the conversation she had with Will. She was still surprised by his choices, somewhere in the back of her mind she had feared that he would fight her and would have wanted to take Henry with him. She knew that if he took her to court he could probably make a good case for himself given that he had provided their son a stable home while she was working in the field. JJ sat down on the recliner, her eyes still fixed on the driveway but she wasn't really seeing it. She was a million miles away in her thoughts.
Her heart fluttered when she heard the swelling sound of Emily's sleek black Lexus as she drove down the street. The brunette parked the car on the driveway and turned the ignition off. Her hair swept up when the summer breeze caught it, Emily absentmindedly combed her fingers through her long dark locks. She made her way around her car and walked towards the front door of JJ's house, unknown to Emily the blond was watching her every move. Her breath hitched in her throat leaving her absolutely speechless when she saw the short skirt which Emily choose to wore, showing off her long lean legs. She wore heals which were slightly higher then she usually saw Emily wear during the week. Emily wore a maroon blouse which was perfectly form fitting showing off her bodies curves in all the right places. The blond was rooted to her spot behind the window watching as the other woman walked up to the house. In JJ's mind it took the profiler minutes to actually reach the house but she knew that it could barely be more then a couple of seconds. The stone path from the driveway to her front door was not long and before she realized it the brunette had rang the bell.
JJ strode towards the front door, she pulled it open with one swift move, she smiled at the absolutely stunning woman in front of her who smiled back; "Your chariot awaits you." Emily chuckled while she said the words.
"Is that what it is like when you date a high society ambassadors daughter?"
"Maybe if my mother invites you to a benefit." Emily shrugged; "But let's not talk about my bigoted mother who rather sends me on a blind date with a rich boy then listen to me once again explain to her that I am not interested in men."
"Sorry, wrong topic." JJ smiled apologetically, she reached for her jacket on the coat rack and grabbed her bag. She placed the jacket over her arm and ushered Emily out of the doorway so that she could set the alarm before closing the door and locking it. Emily said nothing, she walked down the path slowly and opened the passengers door for the younger blond. But before JJ sat down she reached up and touched Emily's hand which was still resting on top of the door frame. "Sorry, I didn't mean for that comment to come out that way. I know about your struggle with your mother, I should have known better."
The profiler smiled; "Don't try to profile me, Jayje. I'll be fine. I can handle talking about my mother." Emily send JJ a radiant smile to show her that she was fine before she closed the door and pushed her sunglasses on. She quickly made her way around the car and eased herself down into the seat. She backed the car out o the driveway.
"Are you going to tell me where you are taking me?"
"No, not yet." The brunette said grinning to herself. She glanced sideways at the blond who had been one of her best friends since she started working at the BAU. And who she had been infatuated with since she first laid eyes on her. A flare of butterflies fluttered around in her stomach and a nervous feeling settled. Suddenly she was able to hear Garcia reprimand her in stern tone of voice and it made her chuckled, which earned her a confused look and a raised eyebrow from the blond.
JJ watched her and wondered what had the brunette laughing; "What's funny?"
"Nothing, it's nothing I promised I just remembered something..." Emily replied with a genuine smile when she halted in front of a traffic light.
"Are you really not going to tell me where you are taking me?" The blonde tried again, this time she included her pleading blue orbs and a radiant smile knowing that it was a hard combination to resist.
But the brunette was holding her ground when she firmly nodded her head and stayed silent, she had planned something special and she hoped that JJ would remember their first date for the rest of her life as the special date this was supposed to be. She continued driving towards their destination enjoying meaningless small talk with JJ who every couple of minutes asked her where they were going. But Emily never gave her the answer knowing that soon enough she would see for herself what their special date was.
"Emily, what're we doing here?"
The profiler parked the car and turned off the ignition; "You'll see soon enough." The brunette stated simply with a smile. She got out of the car and quickly moved around it and opened the passenger side door.
"How chivalrous." JJ said with a genuine smile as she got up from the leather-clad seat. She leant over the door and kissed Emily softly, having a sneaking suspicion of where they were. "Now, are you going to tell me where we are, or why we're here for that matter? Because this looks a lot like the Smithsonian, and if it is, wouldn't it be closed at this time of evening?"
This was not exactly where she had expected to be for the place of their first date. But she knew that Emily was going to surprise her, never the less, and their unlikely venue made her even more curious as to what the older woman had planned for them.
"Yes, you're right. It is the Smithsonian, the Museum of Natural History actually." The brunette told the younger woman.
"And why are we here?" JJ asked a little more confused and curious with each passing minute.
"You'll see." Emily answered softly though mysteriously, locking the car before taking JJ's hand in hers. She led them both down the pavement toward the darkened historic building, smiling confidently, knowing that the blonde media liaison would love the surprise she had in store for her.
As they reached the stairs, the brunette took out her phone and dialed a number, then waited for the call to connect and smiled at the reaction she got on the other end of the line. Seconds later, a light illuminated the entrance from behind the glass door and a woman appeared behind it. She waved at Emily who waved back as she guided JJ up the stairs.
Within seconds, the door opened and the woman greeted them with a warm smile; "Emily Prentiss, I couldn't believe it when I saw your name flash up on my phone this afternoon!" She quickly made her way toward Emily and hugged her tightly.
"Yes, yes! I know it's been far too long, and I am so sorry." Emily smiled apologetically when she let go of the dark haired woman. "Helena, I want you to meet Jennifer Jareau." She turned toward JJ who stepped forward and took the other woman's' hand. "Jayje, this is Helena Chamberlain, she and I go way back." The profiler explained, making a gesture with her hand.
"It's a pleasure to finally meet you." Helena spoke with a thick English accent.
"Finally meet me?" JJ questioned the woman, immediately picking up on the fact that Emily evidently had talked about her before today.
"Yes, finally. Don't act so surprised, you managed to leave quite an impression on my friend here. For the past … what was it again, Em? Almost 5 years she has been rambling on about you." Helena revealed, turning back from Emily toward JJ; "Come on, lets not stand here in the door opening, there is so much more to see inside."
Helena enthused, ushering both of the women inside. Emily's face had turned a deep shade of red, and she was glad that they were still standing outside where the light could not illuminate her face enough to show the others how flushed she looked. Leave it to Helena to spill her secrets.
For a second JJ wondered if in the past these two women were more then just friends, but she pushed the thought to the back of her mind. She was sure that there would be more than enough time to question Emily about it at a later point. A small tug on her hand brought her back to the here and now, and she followed Emily and Helena inside the Smithsonian; "But isn't this museum closed?" The young Agent asked, wondering who the Englishwoman really was, so far she only knew her name after all.
"Not if you are one of the resident scientists who owns a key and likes to work during the night, because she gets awkward when all the people are walking around." Helena answered with a half serious smile as she stepped into the old building, allowing the other two women to pass her before she closed and locked the door behind them. "I'm going back to my office, you know where to find me when you are ready to leave, right?"
"Yes, we'll come to your office before we leave." Emily promised with a smile as she watched as her friend retreated in the direction of her office. Emily had been here a couple of times before, ever since Helena landed the job at the Smithsonian they had picked their friendship back up, and generally saw each other at least once a month. They had tried dating for a little while but that hadn't worked out for the two of them.
The two FBI Agent's watched as Helena disappeared down the hall. JJ turned toward Emily and gaped at her, half excited half exasperated; "Oh my God! What did you do Emily? How am I ever going to top this date?" The blonde exclaimed with a smile.
"Sweetie, you ain't seen nothing yet." The brunette smiled and reached her hand up to cup the blonde's cheek. "Besides, you deserve it." For some reason, whenever Emily thought of the perfect first date with JJ, this had been what she had in her mind and she was excited that finally she could let that dream come true. She was finally here on a date with JJ and nothing could stop her now, she leaned in and kissed the younger blonde.
"Thank you." The media liaison whispered softly between kisses.
"You don't have to thank me." Emily said as she took JJ's hand in hers and lead them toward the exhibit she wanted to show her. The hallways were illuminated enough for them to find their way, bathing them in gold coloured rays. The second they stepped inside the room, JJ knew what they were doing there, a butterfly exhibit. A huge grin appeared on JJ's face and she instantly turned toward Emily and kissed her passionately.
They spent the next hour or so walking between the several parts of the exhibit to end up in the butterfly garden. A beautiful place filled with trees, plants and many different coloured butterflies. JJ was in complete awe of the beautiful environment they were in. The beauty of the garden around them made the two women feel privileged, especially in their line of work with all the horror they see on a daily bases they enjoyed the silent refuge.
Emily guided them to a bench in the middle of the garden and sat them down. They looked all around them, at the butterflies flying from one tree to another, shimming in the yellow glow of the lights that were scattered around the garden area. For a few minutes neither woman spoke, instead just comfortably basked in the scenic and peaceful atmosphere, until the brunette opened her mouth to break the silence.
"Jennifer?" She asked, using JJ's full name, which immediately got her complete attention. She had a feeling that whatever Emily was going to say was something important as the mood shifted slightly to a more intense one.
"This is what I wanted for so long, and I'm so happy that I finally have the chance to be open with you about my feelings. This place just seemed like the perfect place for a first date." Emily endeavoured to explain before she leant in and gently kissed the younger woman. Tears were brimming in the blonde's eyes; she closed them and kissed Emily back.
"This is perfect." She agreed between kisses, voice thick with emotion as she placed her hand on Emily's neck to hold her close. She herself however, moved back to allow Emily to see the emotion etched on her face and the tears in her eyes. Good tears, happy tears; "Thank you so much, this is truly perfect."
"Oh sweetie, don't cry." Emily pleaded quietly, beginning to absorb JJ's emotions as they affected her own.
"These are good tears! I am so happy right now." JJ leaned in and hugged the older brunette, wrapping her arms around her and feeling completely content. Right now in this moment, she knew that she had made the right choice. They sat there for a little while longer, softly talking, enjoying their company and the environment before they headed back to Helena's office to tell her that they were leaving. Helena smiled when she saw them and insisted that they would have to go on a lunch soon.
Hand in hand, the lovebirds walked back to the car, and even though it was something new in their relationship, it felt good, a natural progression. Upon arriving at the car, Emily announced that she had made a reservation at a restaurant. Curious as she was, JJ tried to figure out which restaurant they were going to, but like before the brunette wouldn't even give her a hint.
The younger blonde even tried to get an answer by leaning in to kiss Emily when they stopped at a traffic light, and when that didn't help, she innocently placed her hand on Emily's knee, inching it up her leg ever so slightly. It was something that had always gotten Will to spill his beans, but either it didn't work on Emily, or she was better at resisting the teasing. Though she did feel pride boil to the surface when she noticed the blush colouring Emily's cheeks when a nearby lamp post shone on her face.
Emily, on her part, was more determined than ever to keep her mouth shut, simply because she didn't think that she would be able to speak a full sentence without stumbling due to the advances JJ made on her. This was a new experience, she had never seen this side of JJ and she was somewhat surprised. This side of JJ hadn't even been noticeable when everyone had known she was with Will, the only real display of affection anyone had caught was the kiss she'd initiated in Miami, the kiss that had of course almost killed her.
But that was all in the past; Will was not in the picture anymore, not as far as JJ was concerned anyway. Of course he would, in a matter of speaking, always be around because of Henry. But the media liaison was with Emily now. And this was a thought that made the goofy grin on her face grow even wider.
Soon however, much sooner than Emily would have liked, they arrived at their destination; JJ's favourite Mexican restaurant. The blonde media liaison's face lit up immediately upon the realisation. "Emily! This is just perfect! This is an absolutely perfect night. Thank you so much!" JJ could barely hold her excitement in as Emily parked. As soon as she cut the ignition the blonde leant over and pulled the brunette close to her, yet again flushing her with passionate kisses as she thanked her once again.
"Stop thanking me!" Emily ordered with a smile between the kisses; "It's what you deserve." Again came the flattered insistence that JJ deserved nothing less than the best she could possibly give her. She took a quick glance at her watch and noticed the time. "Let's go inside before they give our table to someone else."
The two women made their way towards the restaurant, where they were soon seated at a small table near the back of the room. A waiter took their drink order and handed them both a menu. They sat at the table talking softly to each other. In a way, it was much like the way they would interact with each other on a girls night out, and at the same time it was also very different.
JJ had been in awe to say the least. She had known Emily for a long time and they had been on many girl's nights out, but the brunette had always kept certain aspects of her life private. And one of those things had been the way that she was when she was in a relationship with someone, or at least working towards a relationship. JJ never figured the profiler to be the romantic type, but she was. She had made sure that their date was absolutely perfect. From the Smithsonian to the restaurant, then the way that she had insisted on driving by Garcia's house to pick up Henry so she wouldn't have to worry about picking him up in the morning.
Garcia had been surprised to see the two of them at her doorstep even though JJ had called ahead to let her know they were coming for her son. She threw the door wide open and grinned at the two women in front of her. They had both been gathered in a huge bear hug and she had squealed in their ears, JJ had been sure that she had suffered some permanent hearing loss.
Kevin offered to place Henry's seat in Emily's car, and she reluctantly handed him the key, informing him that she would hunt him down and kill him if he scratched or damaged it inside or out. Kevin swallowed hard, after seeing JJ shoot the guy who tried to kill Penelope, he had known never to mess with these women. And though the blonde was known for her shooting accuracy, he didn't doubt that Emily could do the same. "I... ehm, I will... I'll be careful." He stumbled over his words. JJ jabbed Emily in the ribs with her elbow as she smiled in amusement. Emily though, just shrugged and smiled back; "What? It's an expensive car!"
"You just scared the living daylights out of my boyfriend! He was already scared of you two big bad FBI ladies with guns." Garcia exclaimed. She was so happy for her friends, she had dreamed of the day they would be able to admit to each other what she had seen a long time ago. JJ excused herself and disentangled her arm from around Emily's waist while she went over to the travel crib that held her sleeping son. She hated to do this because she knew that he would wake up, but she knew that he would go back to sleep soon enough. He started crying as she picked him up out of his warm and comfy bed, but cradled him close. "Sweetie, it is just mommy, go back to sleep." She soothed the small boy, who upon hearing, feeling and smelling that it was indeed his mother, soon drifted back to sleep, slumped against her shoulder. Emily grabbed a hold of the bag with Henry's belongings in it, which Garcia handed her before they returned to her car.
When Emily parked the car on JJ's driveway, she had quickly gotten out of the car to help the blonde, who was already gathering her son in her arms. Emily waited till the blonde lifted her young son out of the car seat and started for the door. A moment later, Emily followed her with the bag and the car seat.
She placed the car seat down on the floor and closed the door, JJ was waiting at the bottom of the stairs; "I am going to bring Henry upstairs, I'll be right back. Will you still be here?"
"Of course I will be here." Emily spoke softly, barely audible.
JJ nodded with a smile and turned around to make her way up the stairs with her son who was already asleep on her shoulder. He was weighing heavily on her arms and she was relieved when she placed him in his crib. Luckily his fairy Godmother had already made sure that he was dressed in his pyjama's. Barely minutes after JJ's disappeared upstairs she was descending the stairs to join Emily in the living room.
As JJ woke up she glanced at the clock and stretched out in the bed, realising that she missed having someone besides her, she missed the warmth of a lover. She missed being woken by their gentle kisses or in turn watching them as they woke up.
JJ reveled in the feeling of the sun playing on her skin as it shone through the curtains. For the first time in what felt like forever she was feeling well rested. Suddenly she realized that Henry hadn't woken her up which was in it's own a rare occurance and while she glanced at the clock again, she was surprised to see that he had apparently slept through the night. With a start she got up and went to check on him, only to find him contently lying in his crib wide-awake. JJ smiled at him and leaned down to pick him up. "Hey baby, did you sleep well?" The blonde asked as he threw his little chubby arms around JJ's neck and gave her a sloppy kiss on the cheek.
"Yes!" He exclaimed happily, not quite able to temper his volume in his excitement.
JJ talked to Henry as she cleaned his diaper and got him dressed before she took him down to the kitchen to prepare their breakfast. She sat Henry down in his high chair with a couple of toys and talked to him all the while she was talking to him while she was cooking. Every now and then the little boy would say something back to her, but often it was something completely unrelated and random. She was looking forward to the moment that his vocabulary and understanding of what was being said would improve to a level were she could really interact with him. The young woman smiled while she watched him take the little pieces of bread and stuff them into his mouth one after another. Every now and then she had to remind him to slow down. While she watched him a plan started to form in her head.
"Henry, would you like to go to the Zoo today? So we can see all the animals I showed you in the book daddy bought for you?"
"Yes, I wannasee elephant!" Henry clapped his hands happily, and then he asked the dreaded question. "Is daddy coming?"
"No, honey, daddy isn't coming." JJ answered with a sad smile, it was the one question you never wanted your child to have to ask. It should be normal for a dad to be around and to go with them on a trip. That was why she kept trying, why she had been so persistent to not give into her feelings for Emily when she was still living with Will. For a while she had thought that she owed it to Henry to make it work with his father, but now she could see that it didn't work. "Maybe I can give aunty Em a call, would you like that?" The blonde asked her young son, knowing that he loved his aunty Em and maybe ... surely also for her own personal reasons.
"Yes! Aunty Em, she come to the Zoo?"
"I'll have to give her a call." JJ picked up her phone and looked down at Henry who was already engrossed in his cars. She dialed the number for Emily before she lost the nerve to do so, it was strange how she never questioned calling Emily before and now she was wondering if she should disturb her on a Saturday morning. However, before the agent could question whether or not to call Emily any further, the line connected and she could hear the brunette say her name. JJ realized that she hadn't said a single word but that through her caller ID Emily knew exactly who it was that called her.
Emily repeated her name; "Jayje? Are you there?"
"Yes, sorry Emily. Yes I am." The blonde smiled; "Sorry, I was distracted by something Henry was doing." She explained softly, utilizing her young son to explain her silence. "I wanted to thank you for last night."
"No problem, I'm glad that you gave me a chance to take you out on a date." The brunette smiled as well; "I'd like to do it more often." She confessed softly while she played nervously with the hem of her tank top before she moved on to a loose thread on her shorts. Her voice sounded steady but her nerves were running havoc inside of her. Instinctively, Emily knew that nothing went wrong, that their date had been comfortable, but at the same time she feared that after all the drama their date had been too easy.
"Emily?" The blonde replied softly, and Emily's heart dropped in her chest. Here it was, she was sure of it. JJ was going to let her down easily. She sucked in a breath and held it. "Em, I would love to go on more dates with you. I had a great time last night." She watched her son, who was still playing with his cars on the floor in front of her. She was surprised when she heard Emily release a breath, which she had obviously been holding. "Em, did you expect me to say something else?" JJ inquired gently.
"No, no of course not!" The brunette replied with a nervous chuckle.
"Well, either you're really confident of yourself or you're not being truthful to me, please don't do that." The blonde replied sternly. "I was worried too, I almost didn't call because I didn't want to seem…I don't know..."
"No, don't worry about that. I think that I've picked up my phone at least half a dozen times to call you but I didn't and then you called me." Emily admitted.
JJ chuckled, relieved that she wasn't the only one who wanted to call the other one. They had it bad, that much was obvious from their phone conversation. To be quite honest, she had never felt more comfortable on a date then she had with the dark haired profiler, once Emily arrived at her house that was. She had really been serious when she wanted to call the date off yesterday when she was getting ready. It had been Garcia who kept her sane and made sure that she wouldn't do anything stupid before Emily arrived at her house. And one look at the brunette had melted all the nervousness away because she saw the same look in her eyes. "Em, the reason I'm calling is that I was planning on going to the Zoo with Henry today and he'd like it if you'd join us?"
The dark haired profiler chuckled; "Who's lying now, Jayje? Henry would like it if I would join you? I sure hope that you would like it as well?"
The usually so well-spoken media liaison had to attempt three separate tries before she was able to speak up; "I would love it if you would come with me and Henry to the Zoo. I don't want to overwhelm you, or push Henry on you..."
"Jayje hush." Emily's words halted the blond from continuing the sentence she had started. "Don't finish what you were about to say. I would be offended if you would finish what you were about to say, I know that you have Henry to think of. But Jayje, I choose you and Henry is part of that package, besides I love the little man and I think that it's a great day for a trip to the Zoo." Emily rambled on while the blonde listened breathlessly.
Tears appeared in the FBI agents' eyes, emotions were running high and she swallowed hard to calm herself down; "Emily, really. You mean that?" JJ turned her attention to her son; "Henry, Emily is joining us on our trip to the Zoo, isn't that cool?"
"Yes, cool!" The little boy yelled happily, before he launched himself into JJ's lap to grab the phone and let Emily hear his 'yes cool' screamed through the device for good measure as well. He was silent for a second before he turned to his mother with a questioning look on his innocent face; "Huh, no one is there?" He said with a questioning look on his face.
"Hi Henry!" Emily said with a smile on her face at the little boys antics. But Henry held the phone away from his ear while he looked up at his mother.
"You have to keep the phone by your ear, otherwise you can't hear anything, sweetie." JJ coached him to hold the phone by his ear, while the child listened with an intense look on his face.
"Hi Henry?" The brunette said again, after all she was able to hear what the blonde had told her son.
"Hi Em'ly. You come to the ..." He snapped his head up at his mother for help. 'Zoo' JJ told him, he nodded his head before he tried to repeat it; "Sssoooo?"
The profiler kept the chuckle that threatened to escape from doing so and waited patiently for the young child to finish his question; "Yes, Henry I would love to go to the Zoo with you and your mom."
"Cool!" Henry answered with a smile; "Here, mommy." He said while he trusted the phone back in the blonde's hand before he moved back towards his cars. He was already completely focused on his game before JJ even managed to get the phone back to her ear.
"Well, that settles that then. Doesn't it?"
"Yes it does. I'm glad that he likes the idea of me joining the two of you."
"Of course he does, he's crazy about you and Pen. Well he's crazy about all of you. If I say that I am going to see you he always wants to come with me. Anyway, I need to get some things ready and make sure that I have all of Henry's stuff, I think that I need about thirty minutes tops. Would it be a problem for you to come here? We can take my car to the Zoo but it gives me just a little bit more time to prepare." JJ asked the profiler while she tried to think of all the things she could possibly need for a day out.
Emily got up from the couch and walked towards the window, she looked out over the Capitol while she listened to JJ with a smile on her face. "It's no problem at all, I will be there in thirty minutes." Both JJ and Emily said their goodbyes and disconnected their phone call.
Emily pushed herself away from the window and made her way to the stairs, she took them two at a time and was upstairs in a matter of seconds. She rummaged through her closet for a good five minutes to pick out her outfit before getting dressed.
Soon, Emily was in her car driving towards the media liaisons house. She was nervous. Sure she had spent some time with Henry before, but it had been different then, she was a co-worker and a friend of his mother. Now she was a love interest who might in the future potentially become a huge influence in the boy's life, of course depending on how their relationship would develop. And even though Emily had said that she choose the package including JJ's son when she choose her, the mere thought of spending time with the little boy made her a tad bit nervous. She was not used to being around kids.
For the third time in less then twenty-four hours the brunette parked her car in front of the blonde's house and made her way to the front door. The door swung open and a brightly smiling JJ was standing in the door opening. Emily smiled, a little shyly, when she saw that the younger woman was holding her son in her arms.
At first she had wanted to lean in and kiss the media liaison but being confronted with Henry threw her off a little. JJ seemed to notice the hesitation; she took matters into her own hands and pulled the brunette close to her. She kissed the older woman passionately; "I'm glad you could join us." She lingered closely to Emily and gently trailed her fingers along Emily's jaw line.
Emily wanted to step back, but a small hand tugged on her short sleeve; "I wantssa kiss too!" Henry said to Emily with a cheeky smile. The brunette smiled and leaned towards the small boy, she kissed him on his cheek. In response Henry wrapped his small chubby arms around her neck, he leaned closer to Emily making it harder for his mother to hold him. Instinctively Emily reached her arms around him and slowly JJ let go. The media liaison watched her lover and her son together for a few seconds; she let the feeling of utter happiness warm her heart. She hadn't felt this alleviated in a long time.
"Seeing how you're holding Henry, it gives me time to put everything we need in the car. That is if you don't mind holding him a little longer." JJ asked while she bit her lip.
"We'll be fine, won't we little man?" Emily asked the boy in her arms. "Besides, I better get used to this." The blonde grabbed the bag she had placed underneath the coat rack and stepped outside. Emily followed her lover outside; before she could stop Henry he had grabbed and pulled the oversized sunglasses from her dark long hair. He turned them and put them in front of his own eyes. "Those look good on you buddy, what do you think should we maybe see if we can get you some cool big boy sunglasses?"
Before Henry could answer his mother stepped in; "Em, you better get those away from him, lately he has a knack for throwing things. God knows I had to replace mine three times in just as many weeks." JJ smiled while she placed the bag in the back of the car, while the brunette took the glasses from the small child's grabby fingers.
She knew that Emily had never been around children much to begin with and therefore she wasn't used to their antics. However, she was convinced that Emily would soon find her footing; if their relationship went the way the media liaison hoped it would progress. And therefore she decided that it was better to let her handle this situation on her own. Finally Emily managed to retrieve her sunglasses and she hooked them into the back pocket of her jeans away from Henry's grabby hands.
She then took it upon herself to put Henry in his car seat, which was easier said then done. JJ watched on, biting her lip to prevent the chuckle from escaping. Emily stepped back and looked up at the blond with a confused expression on her face; "Apparently you have to be a mere genius like Reid to figure this car seat out." She said with an apologetic smile. JJ stepped in and it took her skillful fingers merely seconds to strap him into the seat. Meanwhile, Emily sat down in the passenger seat waiting for JJ to take them to the Zoo.
A little over an hour after JJ called Emily, she arrived at the house. For the third time in less than twenty-four hours she parked her black Lexus in front of the white house with the picket fence and the front yard. She smiled, it was so the All-American dream house that people imagined when growing up, and yet it was so distinctively JJ.
On one hand the blonde wanted to be the successful FBI Agent, the best in her field at everything she did whether it was on a shooting range, a fitness test or when doing a press conference, she was always working hard. She prided herself on the fact that she managed to escape the small town she grew up in, but in the end, next to her job, she wanted to have the same exact same thing the girls in that town wanted.
The house was a visual representation of that want. The love for her son, the way she had tried to keep her relationship with Will going even though she knew that it would end sooner rather than later. The way JJ took care of the teams every need, and how she always seemed to know what an individual person needed the most at any given moment. Somehow Jennifer Jareau seemed to be able to juggle it all at the same time, a rare talent.
The brunette smiled, the younger agent had always been a dear friend, someone she could lean on. Someone who would always have her back, but she had always wanted more and now that she had a shot at it she would do everything in her might to keep moving forward in their relationship.
Emily stood up and closed the car door behind her; she pushed the alarm button and walked up the path towards the house. Her knuckles had barely touched the door when it flew open revealing a brightly smiling JJ and an equally smiling Henry. "Hi Emily."
The brunette smiled back a little shyly when she saw Henry. Of course she knew that Jennifer had Henry and that he would be part of the situation wherever it would take them, but she wasn't quite sure how to react around the small boy. She wasn't here as just a friend of his mothers like she had been the last time she had seen him, it threw her off a little. She wasn't sure how to react. The blonde seemed to notice the hesitation; and took matters into her own hands. She grasped a handful of Emily's shirt and gently pulled her closer, she kissed the older woman before she leaned back a little and watched her; "I'm glad you came."
"I am glad you called me." Emily answered a little relieved to have passed the initial meeting. When she wanted to step backwards however, she felt a little hand tugging on her sleeve.
"Me wants a kiss too." Henry stated with a smile.
Emily leaned in and kissed the small boy on his cheek and her hand stroked his back. Henry leaned in and kissed Emily back before he wrapped his chubby little arms around her neck. The little boy leaned in even more, making it harder for JJ to hold him. Instinctively, Emily wrapped her arms around his small body and the blonde slowly let go of her son. JJ stepped back and watched her lover with her boy.
"Well, seeing how you're holding him, it gives me chance to get everything we might need into the trunk of the car." JJ smiled at the sight in front of her; "lf you don't mind."
"No, I don't mind, I better get used to this." Emily answered with a smile while she watched the small child in her arms with interest. Truth be told, even though she was in her thirties she had never really been around children much in her life. She was an only child, and when growing up the kind of people her parents befriended were often selfish career minded sophisticated people who didn't care much about children, and if they did have children often a nanny would be the primary caregiver. And now most of the friends she had were also more focused on their careers then anything else. Except for the few times she had seen either Jack Hotchner or Henry Jareau, her experience with kids was very limited.
Emily followed JJ outside, still holding Henry who was babbling in her arms. She was watching the blonde moving around the car and before she could stop him Henry pulled her sunglasses from her long dark hair. He put the extremely oversized glasses in front of his eyes and smiled broadly. "Those look really good on you buddy! Maybe we can get you some really cool big boy sunglasses."
At Emily's words the blonde quickly moved away from the trunk of the car and watched the other woman; "Em! You'd better take those away from him. He's two and has this thing for throwing everything he can get his hands on. God knows I had to replace my sunglasses three times in just as many weeks." The blonde chuckled while she watched the profiler struggle to retrieve her sunglasses from the grabby little hands.
JJ knew that Emily wasn't used to being around kids and that she wasn't used to their antics. She knew however, that soon the brunette would find her footing if their relationship would work out the way the media liaison hoped it would. Finally, Emily managed to grab the glasses and stashed them away in her jeans back pocket before she attempted to get Henry strapped into his car seat.
The media liaison watched on as Emily clumsily attempted to get the boy in the seat, but he resisted every step of the way. Like he always did, he certainly didn't like sitting in the car seat. Emily struggled for a good minute and a half before she stepped back; "Ehm, apparently you need to be a genius like Reid to figure out how to put a kid in a car seat." She smiled apologetically at JJ, and let the younger woman step in. It took the blonde's skillful hands only a few seconds to complete the task. Soon they were on their way to the Zoo and the nervousness that Emily had initially felt when she was confronted with Henry had faded away as she got into JJ's car. But it flared up again when the blonde placed her hand on top of her thigh.
"Relax Em. Everything is fine."
"But Jayje..." Emily said with a small gesture to the back of the car where Henry was sitting blissfully unaware of the tension that flared up.
The blonde moved her hand up Emily's thigh, effectively silencing the brunette; "He's two, he's not aware of what's going on between us. Everything is fine, we're just two adults who are in love taking my son to the Zoo, that's all there is too it."
Emily released a breath she had subconsciously been holding and nodded. She It took a few minutes to get her nerves back in check before she focused her attention on the other two people in the car; "Henry, have you ever been to the Zoo?"
"Yes, with daddy!" The young boy exclaimed.
"Really, which animals did you see with daddy?"
"Froggies!" Henry exclaimed happily. "I like froggies!"
"He's completely into frogs for some reason." JJ told the brunette by matter of explanation; "I think I have Pen to thank for that. Instead of giving him a teddy bear like any other Godmother in the world would have done or a plush lamb or something, she gave him this cute bright green frog when he was born."
Emily smiled and turned around in her seat looking over at Henry; "What about elephants, do you like them?"
"Cool!" Was all that the boy said.
The media liaison chuckled; "He's not a man of many words."
"No, he certainly didn't inherit that from you. Maybe he just has to grow into it." Emily laughed along. "But then again, if I remember correctly his father isn't a man of many words either, except for when you wanted him to keep his mouth shut that is..." The brunette added when she remembered that time at Miami when it had been so obvious that he wanted to tell the team about their relationship or in New York when he so obviously against JJ's will told them about her pregnancy.
JJ nodded, a stern look on her face, but she didn't say anything. Emily wanted to say sorry but decided against it and just watched the road for the next ten minutes until the blonde parked the car. Maybe it wasn't smart to bring Will up during conversations, at least not in a slightly negative way.
It took them a few minutes to get from the car to the entrance of the Zoo where they started their trip around the park. Emily completely surprised the blonde by the knowledge she had of the animals shown in the Zoo. With nearly every species she had a story to tell Henry, JJ doubted that her son understood a word Emily was telling him but she found it particularly amusing that she shared the information with the boy anyway.
When they had lunch later that day, JJ had attempted to inquire the profiler about it but all she said was that she and her father always went to the Zoo wherever her mother was stationed when she was a child, and that he always told her the stories. It was the first time JJ ever heard Emily talk about her father and it was all the information she got out of her. The media liaison tried to ask more questions but the brunette refused to release any more information than she already had. An awkward silence fell over them while they continued eating lunch.
After their lunch break they continued their walk through the Zoo and Emily continued to tell Henry all about the different animals. The blonde listened intensely, and she couldn't help but wonder why the brunette had closed up when she had asked her about her knowledge. However, she decided not to broach the subject again anytime soon.
Later on when their day at the Zoo was coming to a halt, Emily had insisted that they should go to an ice cream parlor which sold original Italian ice cream. It was the best in all of Washington according to the brunette. Soon there after they strolled back towards the car and the blonde drove back to her house.
"What about pizza, or Chinese ... No, I know, Thai food, and then we can have a quite night..." The last sentence was spoken softer than how she had spoken before. She seemed a little nervous as she turned her head towards the brunette for a moment. "That's your favorite right?"
Emily smiled; "You know me all too well."
"Well, how about it?" JJ questioned with a smile, again paying attention to the road ahead of her.
"Sounds like a plan to me." The brunette agreed with the blonde.
"Good, I'm not ready to say goodbye yet." The younger woman confessed, glad that she could focus on the traffic around her instead of on the profiler next to her. She wasn't sure if she would have been able to make that confession looking straight at Emily.
"Me either, Jayje. Me either." The profiler turned her gaze out the window, and a smile played on her lips. The occupants in the car fell into a comfortable silence for the rest of the drive, until JJ parked the car in her driveway.
"Em, I'm sorry to ask you this but could you maybe get our things, well mostly my things, out of the car while I get Henry upstairs? I'm pretty sure that he's out for the count. And when I come back downstairs you and I can have a quite evening together."
"Anything specific you want me to order?" Emily asked the younger woman while she watched her carefully.
The younger woman moved closer towards Emily, she kissed her softly before moving backwards with a teasing smile; "You're the profiler, figure it out." She made a swift move and blonde hair brushed along Emily's hands as she spoke with a chuckle before she quickly got out of the car.
Emily watched, stunned that the other woman was such a tease. She never would have figured that JJ kept this side of herself hidden so well, but then again in their line of work there wasn't really any room for teasing. Besides that there was of course the fact that it was hard to trump Garcia's teasing.
She got out of the car, nodding her head in disbelieve. She never would have pegged JJ to be such a tease, but she had apparently be wrong. She held her hand out and asked JJ for her keys. The blonde handed them to her before she bent into the car and picked up her sleeping son.
Meanwhile, the brunette opened the trunk and gathered the diaper bag and the stroller. She closed the trunk and followed JJ towards the house while she locked the doors with the remote. Once she opened the door JJ took her young son upstairs. Emily placed the bag and the stroller underneath the coat rack and made her way into the kitchen. She picked a menu from the fridge and sat down at the kitchen counter. Her eyes flew over the menu and she made a choice, dialed the number and placed their order. She sat at the breakfast counter in the middle of the kitchen patiently waiting for JJ to return.
Absentmindedly, Emily went through her phone menu until she reached the gallery; she glowed at some of the pictures she had taken during their trip to the Zoo. She stopped flipping through the pictures when she reached a particular one that showed JJ and Henry and herself.
They had asked a woman who was visiting the Zoo with her family. It had been JJ's idea; she had claimed that there also needed to be a picture of the three of them, given that it was either JJ who took a picture of Henry and Emily or vice versa. The woman had smiled and agreed if they would take a picture of her and her family too, which of course the two agents had agreed to do. When she handed the phone back to Emily she had commented on what a cute son they had.
Emily had wanted to set the woman straight by telling her that Henry wasn't hers, but JJ had just grabbed her hand to silence her and thanked the woman. It had been a strange situation but neither of them had said anything about it since it happened. The brunette was still thinking about it when JJ suddenly appeared behind her. The young blonde wrapped her arms around Emily and startled the woman; she placed her chin on the profilers shoulder and murmured sorry.
Emily chuckled; "You just startled me, no need to say sorry. I was just lost in thought and hadn't noticed you walking in."
"That is a cute picture." JJ commented while she watched the picture on Emily's phone. "Can you send it to mine?"
The brunette placed her hand on top of JJ's, which was still gently placed on her middle. "Sure I can. Thanks for taking me with you, I loved it."
"Good, I had a great time as well, but it's not over yet. Today I mean." She added to be certain that the brunette got what she meant. The blonde placed a kiss on the profiler's cheek, she reluctantly let go of Emily and turned around.
She placed her back against the breakfast counter, while Emily turned in her seat. She placed her hands on the media liaisons hips and pulled the blonde closer to her. JJ moved in-between Emily's legs, gently placing her hands on the brunette's thighs and moved even closer towards her.
JJ leaned in and kissed the older woman, their kiss rapidly turning into something more, an exploratory kiss which soon turned into a battle for control. Emily wrapped her arms around the younger woman; she reveled in the warm closeness of their bodies. The only thing that tore them apart was the bell signaling that their food arrived.
The blonde pushed herself away from the brunette with reluctance. The profiler pulled her closer and kissed her briefly before she released her hold; "The faster we answer the door the faster we can continue this. And I promise you we will continue this." She said; her voice holding a confidence of a promise she would collect on later.
JJ smiled, and pushed herself away again; "Hmm, that sounds good. I better go and pay the delivery boy then."
"Oh, I think you should ... quickly." The brunette said with an undertone in her voice, one the blonde had never heard before, at least not from her brunette counterpart. She swallowed hard before she watched the brunette turn around and search the cabinet for plates and glasses.
JJ quickly spun on her feet and made her way into the hallway to answer the door. She was sure that by her flushed looks the deliver boy could guess why it took her so long to answer the door. He handed her the bag of steaming hot Thai food, which she placed on the floor next to the door before she proceeded handing over the money, she tipped him generously. He couldn't be more then sixteen years old but before she had a chance to close the door he wished her a good evening with the most cheeky smile she had ever seen on a boy that young. Well at least not since she herself had been that young.
JJ closed the door with an amused smile, and when she turned around to move back towards the kitchen she caught her own reflection in the mirror. Indeed she did have a flushed appearance, but that was not the only thing that gave her away. What stood out even more was the smudged evidence of lipstick, which wasn't only her own color but also Emily's. She traced a finger along her swollen lips while a smile appeared on them. She turned around to move back towards the kitchen, where she found Emily leaning against the door frame with a devious smile on her lips.
"You let me answer the door looking like this?" JJ asked the question she didn't need to ask, the answer was written all over Emily's face.
"Yes, I wanted to tell you how good my color of lipstick looked on you, but I figured that the poor delivery boy had been waiting so long already, so I planned on telling you after he left." She told the younger woman while she tried to contain a serious face but failing miserably. The sparkle gave her away the second JJ raised her eyes and watched the brunette.
"Tease, you can be sure that payback's gonna be a bitch!" The blonde claimed before she tried to pass the older woman in the doorway, but Emily hadn't stepped back as JJ assumed she would do.
She squared her shoulders and embraced the younger woman; "Sorry Jayje, I just loved the way you looked and before I could say anything you were already out of the kitchen..."
"Right, just so you know you aren't the only one who enjoyed it."
"Whaddya mean?" The brunette asked between kisses, slightly stumbling over the words.
"The delivery boy, the barely sixteen year old immature delivery boy, enjoyed it as well." The media liaison elaborated; "He wished us a good evening, he even had the nerve to give me a wink when he said it with his way too confident cheeky smile!" At the end of the sentence her voice had raised a few octaves.
"Oh, let him have his fun, it's not like he actually saw anything. I would have had to kill him if he had." She answered with a smirk.
She wrapped her hand around the handle of the bag and took a hold of it, she setting the food down on the table to start to unwrap the containers, filling her plate with all of her favorite Thai food.
JJ joined Emily at the kitchen counter and grabbed a bottle of wine from the fridge and poured it into two glasses. The blonde watched on as the brunette moved confidently through her kitchen to grab some utensils from the drawer and back to the cabinet for another plate. Emily turned around back to the counter and noticed the look on JJ's face; "What?" she asked a little confused.
"Nothing." She said with a faint smile playing on her lips. She liked the confidence with which Emily moved through her kitchen, taking control of the situation. It had taken Will a long time before he moved that freely around JJ's house. When he first moved to DC, everything had been new and strange, she understood that but the fact that he had been so uncomfortable in her house had made her feel uncomfortable as well. It had almost made her agree that they should find a new house, now she was glad that they never made the move, she was happy here. She had paid for this house by working as hard as she did.
While JJ was thinking about all of this Emily had fixed her a plate as well. Emily had watched her with a concerned look, and when the blonde didn't reply to her question she was even more concerned. She moved closer towards the younger woman and gently touched her arm, JJ seemed to startle at her touch and snapped her head up at her. "Em'ly." She said softly.
"You are not really mad at me, are you?" The brunette asked the younger woman, getting a little more worried with each passing minute.
"Me? No, why would I be mad at you?" The media liaison was slightly confused by Emily's question and her apparent insecurity.
"Well, for one you didn't respond when I asked you what you wanted to eat, so I prepared a plate for you and secondly, you were thinking about something … reminiscing maybe ..." The brunette was rambling and she knew it. She was aware that she was doing it, between profiler's there was the unspoken rule that you would not profile each other, but she was also well aware that she wasn't able to read her as well as she would be able to with other people.
"I am sorry, I didn't think that I was gone for so long. I was just thinking, I just noticed how easy you are moving through my house. With such confidence... and I like it." JJ confessed a little shyly.
"Oh, ehm I am sorry I didn't mean to intrude." Emily said while she nervously dragged her fingers through her long dark hair.
The blond moved closer towards the profiler; "Didn't you hear what I said, I like it. I was thinking about when Will first moved in how out of his comfort zone he seemed, he would always ask if he needed something. It made the whole situation at first really stressful because we didn't feel comfortable around each other. Of course there was also the added stress of a less than planned pregnancy, don't get me wrong I don't regret that now but it did put a lot of stress on that relationship. I was thinking how much different things are with you, now." The blond said while she moved closer towards Emily and kissed her. "I am not mad at you, I have no reason to be mad or anything of that nature. Common' let's take our dinner to the living room maybe we can watch a movie or two."
Sitting on the couch next to Emily, JJ pushed some buttons on the remote control before settling down into the cushions. "I hope you like this." She said with a smile while the dvd started to play.
Emily chuckled, chewing her food and swallowing before she opened her mouth to reply; "I'm sure that right now I will like anything you make me watch." She smirked, her next bite interrupted by a squeal from the blonde next to her.
"Em!" The brunette snapped her head towards the squealing younger woman; "I never figured you to be so cheesy!" JJ elaborated with a shrug, the tone of her voice was still raised higher than it usually was.
"You're one to talk, you're squealing! I mean Garcia has that one down to a tee, but you? I never knew you could do it too!" The brunette smiled; "Besides, I might be cheesy but I'm speaking the truth."
"Right ..." Was all the blonde said before she returned to stabbing at her food with the chopsticks. She felt nerves begin to rush through her while she pushed the food around her plate. They sat in silence for a while both of them engaged in their own thoughts.
But as the time ticked by, Emily became more and more worried about JJ, who appeared to be getting increasingly less comfortable and was nervously picking at her food. "Jayje? What's going on?" The brunette watched the obvious anxious blonde.
"What … ehm, what're you talking about?" The blonde said leaning forward – knowing that the older woman would not be able to see her face, and she would not be able to read her - while she reached for her glass. She swirled her red wine around, watching it intensely while the dark red liquid moved around in perfect circles.
"Jayje, you're obviously nervous about something. I can't remember ever seeing you this nervous, and I've seen you in quite a few different occasions in which any person would have been nervous as hell, but you didn't even break out in a sweat and took care of the situation. So seeing you this nervous is actually quite worrisome." Emily spoke softly, speaking each word carefully while she contemplated them before actually uttering them.
JJ's movements halted and she looked up, swallowing hard; "So we're actually going to do this?"
"Do what?" The profiler asked confused.
"Have sex..." The blonde said softly, the last word was barely audible before she took a sip from her wine and gulped it down hastily.
Emily laughed softly; "You don't have to be nervous about that! We won't do anything you're not ready to do." She elaborated, hoping that it would explain her laugh – she hadn't meant to laugh at JJ's fears but the laugh had escaped from her mouth because she was glad that it wasn't something more serious that had JJ so worried – the brunette looked back at the blonde.
She moved closer, making sure that she had JJ's attention before she continued; "I would never do anything you weren't ready for, and as hard as it might be that includes any form of intimacy. I want to be in a relationship with you, this is not just a quick roll in the hay."
The blonde let out a shaky breath, which she hadn't known she was holding before she even dared to glance up at Emily. "I'm glad." She answered softly before she rested her head on the brunette's shoulder, finally relaxing the tense muscles in her body.
She pulled her legs up on the couch and placed the plate on the table, sure that she was done eating even though she had barely touched her food. Emily smiled and wrapped her arm around the blonde. The two women sat in silence for a while watching the movie – though neither one of them really seemed to follow what the movie was about.
"What if I'm no good at it?" The media liaison muttered after a while.
Every thought process in Emily's mind came to a halt at that simple question. "What if you are no good at it? At what? Sex? With a woman? There is no good or bad at it, Jayje. First times are never easy but I'm sure that it's not something you should worry about. Who says that I'm any good at it?"
"Oh please, as if you have something to worry about. At least it's familiar ground for you, while I'm rediscovering … new found land." She added with a devious smirk.
"That's just … really Jayje, could you not have found a different way to express that thought?" The brunette asked with a grossed out face. "Besides that, why would I not have anything to worry about?" Emily asked the blonde – the movie was long since forgotten as it continued to play on the flat screen television across the room.
"Well, let's just face the facts here, you know what you're doing, there is no way around it."
"That might be true, but who says that I'm any good at it?" The brunette countered again.
"Oh come on, Emily! We both know that you are quite the player when you want to be. And we both know that you have used it to your advantage."
"Yes, maybe, but usually I don't stay around long enough to ask if I was any good." Emily huffed; "And second dates are hardly ever on the menu."
"So what you're telling me is that I'm getting all worked up for nothing?"
"Yes, basically. Let's just enjoy what we have and take it day by day and if we have to, hour by hour. We're in no rush; I have waited so long for this, I'm sure that I can hold off on sex a little longer. Although I personally prefer the term lovemaking when it comes to you. Sex is what I had with those other women. This is different." She knew that her confession could be interpret as basically saying 'I love you' without actually saying those three dreaded words, but she felt like she had to say it, she needed to make sure that JJ got what she was telling her.
The blonde smiled and leaned her head against Emily's arm, her hand wrapped around the older woman's midsection, and the smile on her face was one of utter content. The brunette's smile matched the blonde's, and finally their eyes came to rest on the television screen, staring at the movie neither one of them had followed.
A few minutes later the brunette choose to speak up; "Does it make sense if we continue watching this movie right now, seeing how we've already missed half of it?"
The blonde yawned before giving an answer and looked up at the profiler who chuckled; "Well I guess that answered my question, maybe you should get some sleep while I go home." She had trouble hiding the sadness when she mentioned the word 'home'.
"No! Please stay." The blonde answered quickly while she pushed herself up and kissed Emily; "Please stay, I want you to stay."
"It's getting late-ish, maybe I should go." The older woman said with a smile while she tried to get up however the blond was relentless and she wouldn't let go of her.
"No! Are you really going to make me beg!" The media liaison watched the brunette with her big blue eyes. "I'd like it if you would stay here tonight. I'm not ready for … well the whole … ehm take it to the next level intimacy thing but I ... eh, would really like it if you would stay here so that in the morning I can wake up in your arms." The last words were rambled off quickly while she inspected her nails intensely.
Emily smiled at her obvious nervousness regarding the question she had just asked; the brunette leaned in and kissed the blond. "Okay."
The one word answer was spoken softly between kisses.
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